still a boy (Nico di angelo x ftm reader)

Chapter 2

⚠TW: Panic attacks and mentions of self harm ⚠

Nico's POV: 

I wake up to loud thunder coming from outside. I sit up in my bed and cover my ears I feel a knot tightening in my chest my breath starts to quicken, loud noises tend to scare me. I stand up and walk over to the door. I open it and the thunder suddenly got loud like Zeus was actually at camp and was yelling in my ears. I start to walk towards the big house my hands start shaking and I try to walk faster. it had been raining when I left my cabin but the rain was getting bad and it started to get hard to see. I start running and when I can finally see the big house a huge strike of lightning cracks somewhere in the forest making me jump and my hands shake even more.

I finally make it to the porch of the big house, I knock on the door but because of how loud it is no one responds. I start pounding on the door yelling for Chiron. my legs start to get weak my knees give out, I continue to yell for Chiron in between sobs. My arms start to hurt and the thunder gets louder so I put them over my ears. I try to get my breathing under control but I can't I'm too overwhelmed I can't stop crying either. I'm so overwhelmed I don't hear the door open. 

A few moments later I feel arms wrap around me. I don't care who it is I grab onto them. whoever the person is they help me into the big house and close the door. they walk me over to the couch and I sit down. I look up at the person it's Mr.D, I uncover my ears and then quickly cover them again when thunder strikes. "Hey it's okay, calm down." Mr.D says . I slowly lower my hands, "Shh." He says trying to soothe me. I take a shaky breath, "Good, keep breathing, Nico" I keep breathing and eventually I stop crying and my breathing starts to slow down. "Hey, look at me, can you tell me 5 things you can see?" 

"You, um, the staircase, the rug, the door, and.... and the couches." I say 

"Good what are 4 things that you can hear?" 

"Your voice, t-the thunder, Seymour snoring, and the house creaking" 

"Great, what are 3 things you can feel?" 

"The wood floors, the pillows, and-and my clothes." 

"What are 2 things you can smell?" 

"Seymour's breath, and candles." 

"And what is one thing you can taste?" 

"Um...the-uh the coffee I drank earlier."  

"Good, are you okay?" Mr.D asks I nod, "I-I think so." I say. He nods. "Do you need anything we have Gatorade and crackers if you want them?" He asks. "No I'm g-" 

"Nope you need them, it'll lower your heart rate." He says standing up and walking into the kitchen. I relax and take a few deep breaths, I thought I had my anxiety under control guess not. 

"Hey are you okay?" I hear someone ask from behind me. It's (Y/n). I see him wrapped up in a blanket . I nod. "You have a panic attack too?" He asks. I nod. Mr.D walks in with Gatorade and crackers. "Here, for both of you." He says handing us each a bottle and a stack of crackers. "You can both stay here, I called Will over here, so you can have a 'doctor' here, I'm going back to bed." He says turning around and walking to his room, which was down a small hallway. I take a few more deep breaths. I then realize I'm in a shirt and boxers, I didn't put shoes on at all and I'm soaked with rain water. "Here." (Y/n) says holding out an extra blanket. I take it from him and wrap myself up in it.  He walks over to me and sits on the empty seat next to me. I look over at him, he looks like a burrito, all snug up in a blanket like that. We sit in silence for a while and then the door opens and Will walks in. "Are you guys okay? Did you get Gatorade or crackers. Did you use any coping methods?" He asks frantically. "Yeah, we're okay Will." I say. "are you sure?" He asks. "Yeah." (Y/n) says. Will nods at him. he looks over at me, "Nico can I speak with you?" He says. I nod and stand up. "I want you to keep an eye on (Y/n) and their mental heath, according to Chiron he has a history of hurting himself, I don't want him feeling alone. I'm asking you because I know you would be willing to do it and it's normally easier to talk to someone if they relate to each other." He says I nod. I walk back over to the couch and sit down. Will walks over to the stairs and grabs a sleeping bag from underneath them. we all sit in silence and then (Y/n) speaks up, " Thank you Will, and Nico. The Hermes cabin was really crowded and the thunder was really loud sometimes anxiety can be hard to manage." He says. Will nods, "of course, if you ever need anything come to my cabin someone will normally be awake whoever it is they will know what to do." He says. (Y/n) Smiles and lays down on the couch. "Goodnight." (Y/n) says as he closes his eyes. "Yeah night." I say looking at him then Will and finally closing my eyes and going to sleep. 

A/n: OMG I'm so sorry for not updating I've been busy with theater and school but I have a new chapter finally thank you for reading, have a good day/night my angels