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"ᴡᴇ'ᴠᴇ ᴛʀᴀᴠᴇʟᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ sᴇᴀs, ᴡᴇ'ᴠᴇ ʀɪᴅᴅᴇɴ
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ʟɪᴋᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴏᴡɴ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ
ɪᴛ's ᴀsᴛʀᴏɴᴏᴍʏ"

- ᴄᴏɴᴀɴ ɢʀᴀʏ

| double update :]

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I wonder what happened between heeseung and jake, I asked heeseung how he was doing but he never replied back. Neither seen it, it's like he hasn't used his phone in awhile, or is he mad at me, ignoring me because I might shouldn't have helped, it wasn't my mission, not my issue to solve, now that I think of it, it makes sense. I don't blame him for wanting some space, I probably fucked up as I always do.

I didn't do it out of pettiness, but I expected something like helping.

"oh look" he broke the large cookie in two, wrapping it into a cloth so I wouldn't be dirty after handing it to me, I'm hesitant, I take it with the both of my hands, shuddering a little from all the ceaseless wind, he noticed how cold I was so he came closer, placing his arm around my neck as a scarf "feeling better?" I nodded, and surprisingly I took a bite out of the cookie, I grinned a little but I still swallowed it after munching on it as long as I could.

I can't believe he's skipping school because of me, I'm not stupid, I know how much school is important to his eyes.

Yet he's here, eating a huge cookie with me, not so far from where we are, there's a beach, he's looking at it sometimes, and honestly I long him to ask if I want to go there.

"we should sit there, to observe" that's not exactly what I was expecting, but sitting on the rock border to watch the sea seems as much interesting as walking along the beach "I don't mind" before I sat down, sunghoon took off the jacket he had over his hoodie, placing it where I was supposed to sit.

"it's going to get dirty"

"really?" he giggled, his eyes formed crescents, my heart raced, the pace of my pulse increased, I couldn't find another way to complain so I sealed my lips together while sitting down, I also heard him breathe deeply just when he sat next to me, I thought he'd say something but instead he bit the cookie one and two times, just until the corner of his lips goes to brown, it's chocolate "look at you" I smiled but soon felt strange from doing so, so I I stopped myself from doing so, I heard him chuckle by his nostrils, even if he's dirty or not, I still think he's handsome.

Should I let him know?

No, that's too risky.

"What's wrong?" he chuckled once again, finishing the part he had "you have um" I point at him, toward the corner of his lips, but when he tried to get it off it only got worse, the chocolate goes from the corner to his cheek, he looks ridiculous, yet I'm feeling light, a little flustered "you made it worse"

"oh is that so..."

he seems a little embarrassed, but when I handed him the cloth he gave me earlier, he looks a little less embarrassed. Is he waiting for something? He looks like he's waiting for something to happen, and when it doesn't he gets rid of the chocolate he had, he's frowning a little "it's gone" I said while moving my legs in the void, the wind is pretty chill, but I can bear its temperature, sitting next to sunghoon kind of help me from feeling cold "I hope so"

"I'm coming to school tomorrow" I changed the topic, it's not like the one we had will somehow go somewhere "is it like a statement or a promise?"

"I don't know, if I say it's a promise then how am I supposed to prove it?" I can't help but giggle softly, I'm anxious yet I don't know why, I look away, biting my lower lip, but Sunghoon's voice brings me back to reality, we're looking at each other "anything you want, I won't judge" the beating of my heart hasn't changed from earlier, it's still fast, it hurts my chest, not truly but it feels like it, besides the beating of my heart, I do feel nice, feeling at home.