Lately, Jacob and I have been arguing nonstop even on special occasions like birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, Mother's Day and Father's Day. I think Jacob is jealous and I honestly don't know why. When we argue I can't even win and to be honest I'm pulling myself away every time because it's stressful talking to him and I have all these kids, Isabella see it and she don't like it she always goes to her boyfriend's house and the others just go to their dad or their granny's house and to be honest it's too much for me. I don't know what to do anymore, maybe we are both stressed because we do have twins, but this is a tug of war literally and it's stressing me out. It was hard when my youngest thought that he was going to be a replacement and I feel bad because I didn't want him to feel like he was going to be replace and invisible, All of my kids felt like that and Bryshere and I had to explain it to them so many times "Doesn't mean that we don't love you any less, just because we have a new born baby doesn't mean that we love the baby more than we love you, Our love for our new born is the same love as we have for you" we say this every year or every other pregnancy that we have. And I hope that hakeem understands that.
"Hey Mom"- Isabella
"Hey Sweetie, you, okay?"- Serayah
"Yes, mom I am, I do want to talk to you and it's important and I want you and dad to be here for it so I can talk to you."- Isabella.
"Isabella, you are scaring me."- Serayah.
"It's nothing bad mom I promise"- Isabella.
"Okay, we can make something happen tomorrow or later on if you like?"- Serayah.
"Tomorrow pls because Jordan and I wants to talk to you and dad at the same time"-Isabella.
Deep down in my body I knew my daughter wanted to tell me something and I have a strong feeling that she wants to lose her virginity to Jordan and to be honest I don't know how to feel about this, but We can make something work for her.
"Hey honey, I'm going to take the boys and the twins out to the park"-Jacob.
"Where is London?"- Serayah.
"London didn't want to go; she's been in her room all day lately"- Jacob.
"I know why"-Isabella.
"Why"- Serayah
"Mom, let me handle it, she is my sister after all so I will talk to her"- Isabella.
"Okay go on"- Serayah.
(Isabella went upstairs and went to London's bedroom door and knocked on it)
Who is it? - London.
Your big sister-Isabella
What do you London?
London, open the door pls- Isabella.
Bell, please leave, I'm fine-London.
Lond, pls talk to me- Isabella
NO!!! NOW LEAVE ME ALONE. DON'T YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND TO GO SEE. YOU SPEND A LOT OF TIME WITH HIM LATELY THEN YOUR OWN SISTER-London
Deep down inside I felt bad when London said "You spent a lot of time with him then your own sister" The fact that my own sister feels like I have abandoned her since Jordan came into my life, I didn't mean to hurt my sister but I did, and family always comes first but my sister just wanted to spend time with me and I just ignored her and I feel so bad. Maybe I have given Jordan all my time and attention but maybe I can change that and make my sister happy again. I feel horrible.
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Chemistry
RomanceA women and men fell in love and they built a family and they were expecting their last child together. Will they break up? Or would they be together forever? Let's read and find out!
