Love or lust, why not both?

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Im here.......... I really don't want to be. I walk up to my front door and knock waiting for someone to answer. I look down at my feet and see that they are muddy. Great now I have to clean my brand new pair of shoes. As i am staring at my shoes lost in thought, i hear the door open. " Great your here, finally ." I hear my brother Elijah say as he holds the door waiting for me to get in the house. As soon as i am in the house i hear him slam the door shut but before i could ask him why he did that, i saw my other brother Alek walking towards me getting me with a hug which I gladly accepted because he was Alek. Me and Alek have always gotten along , no matter where we were, school, city, country , you name it. We never drifted apart. We held onto the hug for a couple more moments until we both pulled out of the hug. As we pulled out of the hug , he let his hands glide down my arms until he was holding my hands. " When did you get here, i thought you would still be at school?" I ask him. " I got here half an hour ago, dad called the school and asked for me to be brought home." he told me with a small smile. " Dad brought you home , why?" I asked letting go of his hands. " That's why i texted you to get home." Elijah said answering my question walking up to us. He takes a slow deep breath and lets it out fast. " Apparently Mom and Dad have something to announce during lunch, well we are having lunch with this announcement." he said. I stopped smiling. Almost every time my parents had an announcement it was never good, like the time they said Alek would be going to military school, or like the time they announced that i would be going to a boarding school to get a ' greater education' or the time they announced that we were going to move here to Seattle. Although going to boarding  was probably the best thing that happened to me but that is something i will NEVER let them know. The only good announcement they have ever made was when they said my mother was going to have my little brother Ezra. I nodded at Elijah and took a very deep breathe before asking " Where are they?" . Alek turns to look at Elijah wanting to know the same answer. " The dining room." He answered looking straight up ahead at well..... nothing. I sigh and turn to my left and walk straight ahead. I walk all the way to the dining room.

          I am finally in front of the door but I'm not sure if i am ready to open it, i just know this is going to be the worst news of my life. Don't ask how , i just know it. I knock on the door and i am greeted by our butler Micheal. " Meredith , welcome." He said with a warm smile. " Thank you Michael ." I respond and walk all the way to my assigned seat. I wait until one of my parents assistant pulls out the chair for me. I know it sounds a little extreme but if I don't let them then my parents will just lecture me on it, telling me that I'm a Grey and that I need to act like one. It's honestly better to just suck up than argue with them. I sit down and wait for Danny to push me in. "Thank you." I say and put my hands on my lap. Etiquette, very important, great now my mother's voice is invading my mind also, then hear the door open and see Elijah and Alek walk in. I watch them find there seats and let the assistances push their seats in. We sit there waiting patiently wondering who was going to break the silence. " So what is for lunch?" My brother Elijah asks. " We are going to eat pasta." My mother said before looking at me " All of it." She says looking at me straight into my eyes. In that moment i felt my face go red.... My mother didn't believe i ate enough for her liking . Of course because i am apart of this family means i have to keep up with a certain appearance to impress my mother and her friends. My father never cared much about that kind of stuff , all he cared about was me following a certain dress code . I guess i have always been thin naturally and you would think that would please my mother but she finds me unattractively thin. She has no problem telling me or reminding me and trust me i did everything in my power to gain weight but i guess my body finds it difficult for me to gain weight. But of course that doesn't matter to my mother all she thinks is " I don't try hard enough." Her words not mine. It used to bother me so much when i was younger but i guess after hearing it so many times throughout your teen years you kind of just go numb to it and stop caring.... Well at least a little bit. But when your a grey , well things like that doesn't exist , no feelings , no pain, no nothing. I look at her and give her a smile.....obviously a fake one but it seemed to make her leave me alone. As i look up i see our chefs come out with our food and place them in front of us. We thank them and they leave back to the kitchen. " Well everyone lets eat." My father says picking up his fork and started to dig into his food. I grab my fork and get to eating. I have to admit when it comes to food in my family , i never complain. Without fail this turns out to be one of the best pastas i have ever tasted in my life. I will definitely be able to finish this. As i was eating our assistances came and served us our drinks, i got a water with lemon, well me and Ezra got a water with lemon. Everyone else got soda, my parents love wine but they claim " that's for dinner" which is something i never understood. But whatever . I grab my water and take a sip and start drinking it. " So what's the big announcement that you both felt the need to drag me out of school for?" Alek says as i put my drink down. Elijah stops eating. He knows. Alek and i both look at each other thinking the same thing. Of course Elijah knows. We then look back at our parents as my father got done wiping his face and he shows a serious face , i glance over at my mother who shares the same expression as him. I look at Elijah and see the exact same thing. This is not going to be good.