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Blackmailed 35

“Kim Sunoo!!!”

I looked back and I was shocked I got jumped on by someone. I laughs hard and hugged him back. “I missed you so much, Wonie!” I yelled as well.

“God! I thought you’re not going to visit me anymore!” he exclaimed.

“Good thing, Jay hyung allowed you to meet me,” I stated.

“You don’t know how much bargaining I did,” he answered and we both laugh. “How’s Seoul and bitch your brand is everywhere!”

I chuckles, “Cool and thank you!”

“And your life?”

“Healed,” I smiles. “Let’s go grab some food and make sure to tour me!”

Jungwon and I decided to tour around the city and eat lots of different food then at the afternoon we went biking at the park. We took a rest and eat some ice creams on the cup.

“Oh, mint choco is still the best,” I reacted and smiles.

“Okay fine,” Jungwon grimaced.

I smile when I saw Jungwon’s wedding ring. “Didn’t know you’re going to marry your sugar daddy,” I stated.

“I thought too. I said I just take some money and go but man fall too hard,” we both laughs. “You should look for someone to fall in love too,” he suggested.

“I’m fine waiting,” I replied with a smile.

“Are you still afraid?” he asked.

“Not that I’m afraid anymore… I’m more on, I’m already used being alone and if I accept someone once again, I’m gonna live with it. My attachment issues are worst,” I joked.

“You’re still afraid,” he stated and chuckles. “Let’s not rush it…”

I nod. “I made the best decision, right?”

“What decision?”

“Letting Sunghoon hyung go…”

Yes, I did. I got overwhelmed by hyung’s presence and how he suddenly changes for me and I don’t think I can handle it. I do love him but I don’t think it’s still enough to make me stay with him. Yes, he changed but until when is he going to be like that?

It didn’t convince me well.

And I know I’m not yet ready. I thought I was but when he appeared, I realized that I wasn’t healed yet, I was just distracted. His absence made me feel free but when he arrived again, it made me feel incage once again.

And I won’t tolerate myself getting hurt like that.

I need to grow, doesn’t matter if I’m away from him but my focus is being strong without him and grow alone. And I did that’s why I’m here.

Sunghoon hyung didn’t beg for my love. Maybe he knew I don’t need love for now and so he let me go as well. It sadden me sometimes, hoping he convinced me more but I am actually glad that he didn’t because if I stayed with him fear and anxiety will be the leading emotion and not love and peace.

“You did the best decision,” Jungwon stated. “Choosing yourself first is always the best thing, Sunoo. Remember that. No matter how hard, no matter how dark your path, choose to focus for yourself.”

I smiles and look at Jungwon then hugged him. “I’m so lucky to have you!”

Jungwon giggles. “Yourself is so lucky as well to be back! Welcome back Kim Sunoo!”

I guess that’s how things really work.

“Look at that guy, he’s looking at you since earlier,” Jungwon whispered at me. “The one with the dog,” he added.

“Where?” I wander my eyes and saw this man looking at me. “He’s weird.”

“No, more on he’s checking you out. Go date him!”

“What!?”

“Grab or miss!?”

“You said not rush things!”

“Well not now! Go! Go!”

And maybe it’s really time to make a move as well… and love again.