Let Me Be (Lesbian Story)

Chapter 4

Camille's POV

I was so busy grading my students' test papers in the guest room. I was there for almost 4 hours. I asked Nicole just to call for a pizza delivery. After all, I couldn't cook for dinner this time because my hands were full of work with checking and grading all my students test papers and projects. I see the questioning look in her eyes after seeing me in the guest room. Still, she didn't ask anything. After the talk with Jennifer, a heavy burden relief on my shoulder but just temporary because I still needed to talk to my parents too.

I cracked my neck and shoulder. Finally, I was done. After writing for hours, my right hand felt numb, and now I felt hungry. Looking at my phone clock, it was 9 p.m. I feel sleepy, too, but I still need to eat first. My stomach keeps grumbling.

I go to the kitchen and reheat the pizza in the oven. I prepared a mango juice, and when a ding sound was heard, I immediately grabbed the pizza and ate it. Satisfied being full, I washed the dishes, went to the bathroom, and took a bath.

It's been a week since I don't speak to Helen when we are alone. But every time, I always make sure that Nicole is with us so I can avoid her trying to talk to me. I knew I was running away, but my mind still couldn't make a decision. When I looked at Nicole, guilt formed in my heart. I was being weak again.

I just shook my head. Beth keeps updating me on what I'm doing. When I have free time, we'll eat outside. Spending time with Beth helps me a lot in not thinking about my broken marriage. But sometimes, at night, I always cry. For 16 years I've been together with Helen, it's hard to let go of someone you genuinely love with all your heart. But one mistake could quickly destroy the memories. They are starting to burn in my mind.

I sadly comb my hair after I take a bath. I quietly dry my hair on the hair blower and put a lotion on my legs and arms.

I cursed when I left my reading glasses in our room. I will get them tomorrow when Helen's left for work. I went to the guest room to go to their mini library to grab some encyclopedia books. I was startled when Helen was in there, turning pages from the book she was reading. Too late because I was in the room now, I rubbed my palm and quietly walked to get the book. I silently prayed that Helen won't approach me.

"Cam."

Of course, she will try. How stupid I am. I didn't speak, minding my own business.

"Nicole asked me about you staying in the guest room."

I stop grabbing the books. "And?"

"I just told her that we had a little argument."

I sarcastically laughed. "Why didn't you just tell her the truth? It was your real job because it's your doing."

"Do you want a divorce?"

I looked at Helen. Under her eyes, dark bags already formed. It looked like she was not sleeping well, her skin looked dry, and her hair was messy. She still looks beautiful in her red silky nightgown.

"Yes." I honestly answer.

Helen looks dejectedly, her shoulder limps down, and her face seemed hurt.

"W-What about Nicole?"

"You should think that before you fuck that guy."

Helen let out a shaky breath. "I...I know...I know you can't accept myapology. But I didn't sleep with that guy. It's always a kiss. W-We almost did it w-when you caught us."

I clenched her hands. "So you telling me that I should be thankful that I was the one who stopped you to fuck that guy on our bed?! Seriously Helen?! On our bed?! Bringing him in our home!" I'm glad that the mini-library is soundproof. If not, Nicole will hear me shouting.

Helen flinched for raising my voice. I don't care about it. Her reasoning is making me angrier, and I am very mad at her.

"I'm so sorry. I love you so much, Cam. I don't want to lose you. I don't want to lose Nicole too." Helen plead.

I was glaring at her. My eyes are in pure rage and hate for my so-called wife.

"Fuck you!" I spat at her and tried to walk out when Helen grabbed my arms and pulled me into a tight hug.

I tried to get out. "Let go of me! You're so disgusting! I hate you! Just feeling your body against me is making me nauseous! You filthy whore!" Then she let go of my left hand and I instantly slapped Helen's face.

But Helen firmly grabbed my shoulders and kissed me. I tried to push her, but she grabbed my arms. She was strong. She was using her height to take advantage of me. It made me weaker. The tingly feelings start to lift in my heart. I must not submit to a filthy liar cheater! Helen's kiss is so forceful, moving her lips deeply.

My anger is boiling inside, I regained my strength and pushed Helen with all my strength.

We are breathing heavily. I glared at my wife. I wiped my lips and showed her how much I hate her touch.

"Don't ever touch me again, Helen. The day you let him touch you, your rights being my wife, is completely gone. I want a divorce, don't worry about Nicole. She's big enough to understand how you destroy this family. How you broke my heart and how you broke this family,"

I got out fast, and tears were running down my cheeks. I locked the door in the guest room, and she quietly cried. God! I hate my body for loving my wife's kisses.

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After my last class in the afternoon, I received a text from Jennifer asking me to meet at the nearest coffee shop in our school.

I prepared myself and drove.

When I entered the coffee shop, I quickly saw Jennifer. I slowly walk towards her.

"Hi, mom." I greeted and kissed her cheeks.

"Hi, dear." Jennifer smiled at me.

I take a sit. "Why did you call me here? Did something happen?" I asked curiously.

Jennifer had this smirk. "The man my daughter is cheating with, we're out of the company, I fired him, and I make sure no one will ever hire him in any modeling company."

My mouth hung up.

Jennifer chuckled. "And...I gave him a little taste for destroying a family."

"W-What is it?" I nervously ask.

"I would rather not tell you, dear." She sips her coffee. "But I talk to Helen about it, and she tells me everything."

I sigh in disbelief. Jennifer is a scary woman. "I'm sorry, mom. I can't look at Helen like I did before."

"I know, dear. But she doesn't want to lose you. Honestly, I want you to divorce her so she could taste her own medicine for her wrongdoings."

I sadly smiled at her.

"Helen begged me to help her and make you return to her. Of course, I refused. But I had this suggestion if you would likely to hear."

"What is it?"

"How about taking some time off for you to think properly? Don't live with Helen for six months. Try her if she was truthful about you. If your feelings wouldn't change, then divorce her."

I didn't speak and was lost in thoughts. I love Helen so much, but still, I want to let go because of the pain. The wound she left in my heart is so deep, but even if it heals, the scar is there.

I leaned my back on the chair. "I'm also thinking of that way. I want to relax without Helen around me."

Jennifer grabs my hand and squeezes it. "Then do it for yourself, dear. I was expecting that answer from you. I have already prepared an apartment near your school. Let me help you because I was a parent of this loser daughter of mine."

I giggled and squeezed back. "Thank you, mom."

"Just for my favorite daughter-in-law. I should be the one who must say thank you for having long patience for my daughter."

I blushed. I was so happy that Jennifer was supporting me. Helen is so lucky to have her as her mother.