Stuck in time (Kuancheng)

Chapter 13 : he's unfixable

I know that it is a very rare occurrence now for me to update. I am not going to make any excuses I am going to be honest and it is because writing isn't one of my passions I just wanted to try it out , but here you go , another chapter. Although me myself I don't quite like this book a small group of people do.

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It never was as easy as Zhuocheng thought it would be. It's not something you can label , or use words to describe. For Zhuocheng it was very complex , he was at the moment thinking about his and Haikuan's relationship, he was curious about what Haikuan saw it as. They never stated that they were in love , Haikuan never went overboard, he never was too affectionate. The times he would touch Zhuocheng for something other than sexual pleasure was when he had to fix Zhuocheng of what he had done to him , he felt forced to or so that's what it felt like. Zhuocheng also wanted to fix Haikuan , Haikuan was fucked but he didn't fuck up Haikuan , so how was he going to fix him? He barely knew anything about the man. He envisions himself holding Haikuan in his arms , holding together the already shattered pieces of Haikuan's mind , his mood changed like the weather , the man oh so unpredictable was unfixable. His heart seemed dead , he was a dead man in ways , getting attached to Haikuan meant drowning himself in questions whom would never be answered , he wasn't brave enough to ask Haikuan anything. He was a coward , too scared to question Haikuan but never too scared to be curious , even about the shiny ring on Haikuan's ring finger . Although Haikuan never did anything that would make himself seen as ill or wrong . He never seemed right. Zhuocheng can't speak of it , yet...just yet , he needs to get closer to Haikuan , break through his world , Haikuan seemed like a very neglectful lover , if he were to be one , those would be the words Zhuocheng would describe him with. The shiny cars Haikuan drives , the well tailored suits he wears , his uniform hair and his mannerisms it's an outer layer. I mean surely you wouldn't be so restrained with someone you would want to die next to? Zhuocheng thinks to himself that maybe he's just not to be loved. He shan't chase after Haikuan lest he wishes for a greater sadness. For know he shall just ignore the ring Haikuan wears , the most likely engagement ring. For , his Haikuan was unfixable.