Remember Everything. *OneDirection&BlackVeilBrides*

Prologue.

I'm sorry it has come to this, lads. 

I never meant to hurt you this way.

But I just simply couldn't handle this.

The hate, I mean.

It wasn't your faults, and I'll never blame you.

Please don't blame yourself, my loves.

You're all my brothers and I love you all too bits.

Please tell my mum, dad, sister and brother how sorry I am.

There's a video on my laptop that I want you guys to watch. 

There's a song I wrote that I sung on there. 

Remember that no matter what, I will always look over you boys.

Liam: Oh, Li. I'm so sorry this happened. You were always there when I needed you. Keep a tight hold of Dani for me, babe. She's a keeper. Tell her I love her and that I'm sorry, yeah? Oh, I'm going to miss you so much. Stay strong for the boys. I know they'll crack. I didn't want to leave you like this, but I just couldn't take all the hate anymore. I'll miss you so much. I love you, Liam Payne. To infinity and beyond, Woody. xxx

Harry: Hazza. My best friend since birth. Oh, you're the person I hate to leave the most. We've known each other since the day we were born. Oh, I hate to make you cry, babe. Please don't blame yourself. This was from my own accord. I'm going to miss you so, so much. Don't forget me, yeah? Find a girl, get married to her and start your own family. Don't forget to tell your kids stories of me when they grow up. Oh, how I'm going to miss messing with your curls. No more night time movies, no more cuddle sessions when we couldn't sleep. Oh, I'm so, so sorry I had to do this. I promise you, I'll be your guardian Angel. For all of you. I won't let anything hurt you. I love you, Haz Bear. Forever and always. xxx

Niall: Nialler. My beautiful Irish Snowflake. You're perfect, my love. Please don't let the hate drive you to do this. The boys need you more than they need me. Don't let those girls hurt you like they did me. You were always stronger than I was. I'm sorry that I won't be there to comfort you or be your shoulder to cry on anymore. Maybe Zayn will take that place. Or maybe even Liam. Tell them your problems and let them help you. They will. I promise they will. I love you, my beautiful Nialler. I'll miss your laugh, your accent, your love of food, your blush. Oh, I'm just going to miss you so much. Stay beautiful for me, babe. I'll miss you. I love you, my little leprechaun. Forever and ever. xxx

Zayn: MY HAIR BUDDY! Oh, I'll miss you so much. I'll especially miss your beautiful hair. Zaynie, you must keep an eye on the others for me, yeah? I know you're strong. You'll help them through this. I know you will. I'll always be with you boys. I promise. I'll protect you all like you did me. I'll miss our hair styling sessions. I'll miss our weekly shopping trips. I'll miss everything about you. Help Nialler with his problems, yeah? He's going through quite a lot right now. Protect him from the hate. Don't let him or any of the lads do what I did. This isn't the right thing to do. I'm not needed in this world. This was my way of leaving. I'm so, so sorry, my love. I'm gonna miss your hugs. I'll miss you. I love you, Z. To the galaxy and back. xxx

Louis: Oh, Lou. How I'll miss your jokes. I'm so, so sorry I had to leave you like this. You may never forgive me for this, but please try? I can't have you mad at me. I won't leave you. I'll forever be in your heart. I may even come visit you boys one day. I hope you don't waste your tears on me, BooBear. I'm not worth them. You're all too beautiful to cry. Stay strong. for them all. You're the oldest, they'll be trusting you not to break down completely. Keep a close eye on each other, yeah? Help each other. Don't suffer alone. You'll all get through this. BooBear, never let a tear stream down your face because of me, okay? Keep those beautiful eyes dry. I'm so, so sorry. I'll forever be in your heart. Keep cracking jokes. Maybe even crack one or two at my funeral? I love you, BooBear. Around the universe and back. xxx

Stay strong for me, lads.

Don't cry over me.

Keep those eyes dry.

Support each other.

Keep singing for me.

Don't let the fans down.

I love you all too much for words to ever describe.

Watch the video I made. 

We'll meet again someday.

Maybe not today, or tomorrow or next week...but someday.

Far in the future.

I'll miss you, lads. 

So much.

I love you. 

-Carter Biersack. xxx

She finished the note, and put it on the bed.

She grabbed the pills and opened them.

Popping them into her mouth, one by one.

One pill.

Two pills.

Three pills.

Four pills.

Five pills.

Blackness began to take over her vision.

Six pills.

Seven pills.

Eight pills.

Nine pills. 

Ten pills.

This was it, she thought.

This is my end. I love you, boys.

That was it. 

Carter Biersack was gone.

One Direction has lost their closest friend. 

They have yet to find her body.

They will never be the same again.

I love you, boys.

I love you, boys.

I love you, boys.