Everyone has that one friend that they can tell everything to that one friend. Who will never judge you. Who will always be right there by your side when you fall, when you cry, and when you laugh. Through the good times and through the bad. And this is mine.
You see that girl in the picture above? Her name is Selena. I love her to death. I don't know what I would do without her. Well... I don't know what I will do now, now that I am without her. No she is not passed, though I'm pretty sure I'm dead to her as can be. You see, I am young, but I am old enough to know that this sick and twisted world is full of temptations. And this certain one happen to cost my friendship.
No, I take that back. What we had was not friendship, it was sisterhood. A special type, matter of fact. She was always there for me when I needed her. Selena and I were basically joined at the hip. All the stories on my account with a girl and her best friend? I always imagined that as Selena and I. Now she wants nothing to do with me.
This happened just two days ago, though it first started Monday. (Today is Friday.) Selena and I fought a lot. I'm the jealous type. And there was this girl Rosalyn that I was CRAZY jealous of. They were so close. Closer than us. Selena never told me but I knew in my heart she considered Rosalyn as her best friend and not me. Well, that's what I use to think. Now? Well it doesn't matter what I think now.
Also at this time, this girl Gracee and I started to become close. Just as well, she started to become frustrated with her best friend Ashley. Gracee had this brilliant idea. Leave Selena to Rosalyn, leave Ashley with her girlfriend. And we will just be best friends. This didn't sit well with Selena. You see, when all this went down in Monday, I was at Selena's new house. She took my phone and read the messages. I could tell she was angry but she wouldn't say anything. If only she would have said something.
Then on the day all this stuff went down, before anything happened, it was just another conversation on kik with my best friend. She was playing around and stopped answering me. I called her two names I knew she hated. Quarters and level one. I will explain them both:
Quarters: in 7th grade, Jose and a lot of other guys at our school called her this. Telling her that this was all she was worth. They would bring quarters to school and throw them at her. It upset her so much. It made her feel worthless. I just wish she would have told me.
Level one: this is a less serious one for Selena. She is also a competitive cheerleader. A better one than me, at that. I look up to her so much. She's an amazing person. But this guy at our school Jacob would make fun of her, telling her she's only level 1, which is the smallest level you can ever be on. And Selena is far from level 1. She is level 5.
She didn't mind when I called her level 1. But quarters? That really ticked Selena off.
I won't go into too much detail because I am doing this without her permission. Let's just say I am all alone. No best friend. Basically no friends at all. I am sitting here, forced to re-evaluate my life. And who I want to be. But I have no amazing friend by my side to help me. I hope one day Selena will see this. Maybe even read it. Maybe I will show her. Maybe she will see it herself. Who knows really?
