home away from home

8

Flash back

Jason's POV

I was watching the world and watching Xander cry over my lifeless body. It hurt knowing the one's I keep close to my hurt are hurting because of me. That's when I see someone come and join me "do you want to go home" "that means I lose you all over again" "come on mate your not ready to leave" "robbo I can't lose you again" I lean on him "look please just go back and live a happy life and when it's your turn I'll meet you at the gates" I pulled him into a hug before leaving the clouds.

Flash back over

I was laying in my bed with my breathing tube in. "Hey Jason" I look at the door to see it was Xander "I know you're ain't talking yet" he walked to my bed and placed a kiss on my forehead. He took a seat in the chair next to me "I've been thinking when you get out, you should stay with me, Bre and Rose" I was looking at the wall. "Hey doll" it was Irene's voice "hey Irene" I heard her put something on my table "I've brought some food with me" food I love some good diner food. I put my hand on my ribs and moved slightly but then the pain kicked in "waoh easy Jason" I feel Xanders hand's on me. The doc had came in and removed my breathing tube "there you go Mr Jason" I gave her a nod and relaxed. That's when there was another knock at my door "hey hey!" Of course it was Dean, my brother from another mother. He walked up to me and hug me "what no hug back?" I had a small smile on my face "there's my little Bros smile". Everyone was laughing except me. Irene got up "well doll I've got to go to work I'll come check on you tomorrow" she squeezed my foot before her and Dean left my room. I look at Xander who was eating some chocolate cake "do you want some?" I opened my mouth and he put it in there for me. When I swallowed my mouth full I look at him "thank you". He looked surprised to hear me speak "it's been a long time since I've heard your voice Jason". I rubbed his hand with my thumb "you were with that lady and I was all alone". I was getting tired very quick "just rest Jason I'm here for you"

Xander's POV

It's been a couple of weeks now and Jason had been staying with me at the house. Today I woke up early to an empty bed and I looked around for him. That's when I see him sitting outside on the beach looking at the sun rise. I put on a shirt and made my way down to him and when he saw me he was Abit sad "sorry I didn't want too wake you up". He was looking at the ground "I thought I was missing something in bed and that's when I noticed you were gone". I'm trying not to make him feel bad.

Jason's POV

I hate this feeling that I get when I thought I did something wrong. That's when I get put in between Xanders leg's and I leaned back "just like old times" I love being with him "Rose wants too meet her real father!" I kissed his hand "and how do you feel about it?" I felt him take in a deep breath "honestly I think she's disrespecting are father and I told her that but she still went to meet him!" I got up and Xander followed my lead. I looked out to the Orange "look at that" Xander was looking where I was pointing. I was pointing in-between the two colors "right in between them that's what I look to see every morning that no matter what the living can see the dead for a few hours". I felt Xander put his arms around me "do you miss him?" I nodded my head know who he meant

It'll be fine by dusk light I'm telling you, baby
These things eat at your bones and drive your young mind crazy
But when you place your head between my collar and jaw
I don't know much but there's no weight at all
And I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't
'Cause if I say I miss you I know that you won't
But I miss you in the mornings when I see the sun
Something in the orange tells me we're not done
To you I'm just a man, to me you're all I am
Where the hell am I supposed to go?
I poisoned myself again
Something in the orange tells me you're never coming home
I need to hear you say you've been waitin' all night
There's orange dancing in your eyes from bulb light
Your voice only trembles when you try to speak
Take me back to us dancing, this wood used to creak
To you I'm just a man, to me you're all I am
Where the hell am I supposed to go?
I poisoned myself again
Something in the orange tells me you're never coming home
To you I'm just a man, to me you're all I am
Where the hell am I supposed to go?
I poisoned myself again
Something in the orange tells me you're never coming home
If you leave today, I'll just stare at the way
The orange touches all things around
The grass, trees and dew, how I just hate you
Please turn those headlights around
Please turn those headlights around

I had tear's running down my face "he'll always be with you Jason". I just grabbed his hand "let's go back to the bedroom!"