Instagram love story [English version]

26.

I'm gone. Away from the boys. Away from Harry. Away from everyone. It's not that anyone is going to miss me.

I also left the stuff I was given there, and my phone. I left everything behind. I'm looking for a new place where I can stay until I die, because that's what's going to happen anyway. Why put all the afford in my life when it's already dead?

I don't want people to take care of me anymore. I don't want people to take care of someone like me, a piece of shit that likes boys. I can take care of myself.

And I don't want people to love me. They'll let you down anyway. They say they love you and they'll leave you. No one can love me. I can't love anyone. They always break me anyway.

I didn't bring my phone with me this time, if I have it and I'll see Harry I want to go back. I can't see Harry anymore, it's not good for him and for me. My life is shit and I don't want to make his life a mess either. This is the best option for both of us.

I'm running away.

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I woke up this morning to a door slamming shut. I looked up at the clock on my nightstand and saw that it was only 5 o'clock in the morning. When I realized that I jumped out of my bed to Louis's room.

I opened Louis's door to his room.

He was gone.

His bed was made and his shoes were gone.

I ran down the stairs as fast as I could. I wanted to make sure that he wasn't in the music room, where he spend his time lately.

But without luck.

He was gone and won't ever come back. His phone and his things were still there, but Louis was gone.

I run up the stairs and opened the door of Liam's bedroom, out of breath. "He's gone." I say, tears running down my cheek.

"Harry please calm down. You need to take deep breaths, I don't want you to have another attack," Liam says calmly and he came out of his bed.

He slides an arm around Harry's back and gently brings him to the bed. He sits down and Harry sits next to him. "Who's gone?" Liam asks.

"Louis.." I say softly and burst into tears again. "I'm never going to see him again. He's gone and I don't know where he went. He's gone."

"Hey, calm down Harry. It'll be fine. Try to control your breath first," Liam tries to calm Harry down. That goes unsuccessfully.

Harry begins to breathe faster and faster. His breath forms a squeak. Quickly Liam runs to Niall's room. Niall was the one who could always calm Harry down.

"Niall, please help. Harry is having another attack," he says hastily. Niall jumps up and runs back with Liam.

Niall walks over to Harry. He sits against the arm of the bed and pulls Harry against him. "Harry, I'm here. It'll be fine'

"He's gone..." is all that comes out of Harry's mouth.

"Follow my breathing,"Niall says. He takes Harry's hand and puts it on his chest, where his heart is. "Take a deep breath in and out."

Fortunately, Harry calmed down after a while. He had fallen asleep on Niall. And when Niall knew that Harry was asleep and his breath was under control he turned to Liam with a worried expression.

"What's going on? Why's he having a attack?"

"Louis is gone. All his stuff are still there, expect for himself," Liam answers.

"What? Why?' Niall exclaims, but then realizes that Harry is sleeping in his arms so he immediately puts his hand over his mouth.

"I don't know Niall, maybe something happened between the both of them? Did they have a fight or something?" Liam thinks aloud.

"Wait. Didn't Harry have a long talk with Zayn yesterday?" Niall wonders.

"Yeah, we could go ask him if he knows something?"Liam asks.

Niall nods and Liam disappears to Zayn's room, hoping to find some answers. Hoping Zayn knows where Louis's gone.