COLD • Hyunsung

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The dinner was ready. Jeongin nearly choked on his kimchi stew when he saw Changbin and Felix coming towards the table holding their hands. Minho choked on his rice when he saw Jisung and Hyunjin walking back together, smiling and talking.

Jisung looked... happy. Genuinely happy. But the fact that it was again Hyunjin was was making him smile like that. Minho tried to divert his attention and ate his dinner quietly.

"What the fuck am i witnessing?" Jeongin took a sip of water as he looked at the four boys, surprised.

"Why are these two holding hands-" Jeongin said as he looked at Felix who now looked away from him, blushing.

Jeongin looked at Jisung and Hyunjin who looked similarly surprised, staring at both Changbin and Felix.

"Uhh.... we're dating-" Changbin open his mouth to speak as he was cutted off by Jisung.

"Oh hell no. No. Definitely not." Jisung spoke as he pulled Felix towards him.

Felix now was a totally different man. He was blushing like he didn't throw hands on people without thinking once.

"This... is confusing..." Minho mumbled.

"And shocking." Jeongin added.

The dining table was awfully silent. Some people were just glaring while others focused on their food. The instant ramen looked a bit too appetizing to Felix and Changbin, they couldn't move their eyes from it.

"So first of all, what's with you two?" Jeongin finally broke the awkward silence, pointing at Changbin and Felix who could finally glance a bit into Jeongin's eyes.

"Listen, I don't know how this happened, how I didn't realize that I was falling, okay? It just... happened. He's kinda cute- I mean--" Felix started with confidence but stutter a bit when he noticed how everyone's eyes were at him.

"Uhh... I genuinely like Felix. I found him interesting at the very first meeting, he didn't treat me like I was used to, and it just... aah I don't know, he's just too beautiful and whenever I see him, even the worst of my days get better." Changbin spoke as everyone stared at him, amazed.

"Dude you're smitten. I've never seen you like this." Minho muttered as he glanced at Felix then back at Changbin.

"Anyways, Felix always makes me want to be a better person. I'll change myself so that I can be someone who deserves him. Give me a chance, guys??" Changbin looked around for a consent from Felix's friends, because THAT WAS IMPORTANT.

"One tear in his eye, and I'm breaking your bones, you get it?" Jisung spoke as he playfully glared at Changbin who finally smiled and sighed in relief.

"I'll join him." Minho added as the table finally started chatting.

"And what about you two now? I thought we all were sworn enemies or something?" Jeongin said as he glanced over at Jisung and Hyunjin, making both of them smile a little.

"I guess we got a truce." Hyunjin spoke as he smiled at Jisung.

"Yeah, he's not bad I guess, maybe a bit dumb though-" Jisung spoke as he recieved a not-so-hard hit on his arm.

"So all these months we just wasted our energy.... yeah thankyou mfs. I was enjoying the drama, you guys just ruined it." Jeongin scoffed as he finished his food.

"Oh I never asked, do you have someone that you like, Innie?" Jisung asked as Jeongin almost spat the water that he was drinking.

"W-what? Me? Uhh? I--" Jeongin found something to speak but was gladly defended by Felix.

"Hey hey Jisung, stop putting poor boy on the spot. He'll tell us when he's ready maybe?" Felix said as he smiled and looked at Jeongin who was silently thanking Felix through his gaze.

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Chan reaching home from his job as he was again welcomed by the empty doorways. No Jisung. No Jeongin.

He sighed as he hoped that everyone is enjoying in the camp and the boys weren't struggling. He took his padding jacket off as he rolled the sleeves of his white shirt, boiling some hot water for him to drink.

Suddenly he felt himself losing his balance for a few seconds, he felt his vision blurry as he looked over at the empty sofa. The corner of his head started throbbing with pain as he closed his eyes and tried to take some deep breaths. After blinking a lot and silently praying that he shouldn't die, he felt things normal again. The vision was okay, the pain slowed down and eventually stopped.

"I don't think I need a doctor. Maybe I am too exhausted today." He spoke to himself as he drank the water.

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"Today's just the first day and I'm so exhausted..." Jisung spoke.

"Why do I think Jisung has spoken a lot today. I never saw him talking so much." Felix said as everyone looked at Jisung.

"I'm... I don't know? I feel happy. I feel good. I feel like I don't have to make myself suffer anymore. I have been thinking through things for a while and when I was sitting by the rocks, watching the sunset, I felt like the situations around me aren't gonna change even if I stay sad. Eventually, I'll have to move on from things. I know it won't be easy, but I promise I'll try my very best to be happy from now on. Because I realized how me being all sad and gloomy has affected the people those who care about me... I've seen Chan hyung crying because of me alone at nights, I've seen Felix and Jeongin leaving all of their important tasks just on my one call, I've seen Minho feeling the endless guilt because of me, I've seen Hyunjin and Changbin always trying to figure out why things happened the way they happened." Jisung spoke as he had his eyes intact on his hot chocolate.

"Sungie.. you don't have to force yourself just because you think you're a burden on us. You're not." Jeongin spoke as he hugged the boy.

"I know. It's just maybe me, who wants to change. It's me who wants to feel better, it's me who wants to improve, so I'm still going to try and enjoy as long as I live." Jisung giggled as he looked at his friends.

"I have a question..?" Hyunjin said as he looked at Minho.

"Why would Minho feel guilty though? Did he hurt you in any way?" He asked as he thought about something, and oh well, as much as he wanted to be untrue, he could almost connect the dots.

"It's all in the past, don't worry Hyunjin." Jisung just smiled and shrug his shoulders. Minho frowned and looked over at Hyunjin, and then at Jisung, the way he was looking at Jisung, it definitely wasn't 'just a friendly gaze'. Did he like Jisung?

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Yeah I know I'm very inconsistent but yuh I don't have enough motivation to write these days so .