Assisting Miss Yu - Winrina

Chp. 37

KARINA'S POV

I lied awake in Jungwoo's bed, realizing I hadn't slept in here in what felt like ages. I knew I needed to get out of the kitchen as soon as possible, especially after I had kissed Winter, again. I didn't know what had come over me, or why I showed and said all the things I did to Winter, but I did, and there was no taking it back. She was confused, and sad, and it was all my fault.

I had tried explaining to her, I had tried making her see what I saw, and to be honest, I saw a lot of my sister in Winter.

The drinking, the partying, the smoking and all of the reckless decisions, the only difference between them was that Winter had absolutely no idea that there was something wrong with her.

In a way it was better, because she had gotten so good at blocking out the pain that she no longer realized it was there. My sister, well, she had obviously been overtaken by her own depression and felt like taking her own life was the only way out.

I felt the familiar pain in my heart as I thought about Wonyoung, and God I missed her so much. No amount of anything in this world would be able to replace her or completely mend the wound in my heart she had made.

I felt this strong need somewhere inside me to protect Winter from herself, because as time went on and things got more complicated I noticed a change in her behavior. When I met her she hadn't smoked, well weed, but now she had gone from not at all to smoking almost a pack a day. Her drinking habits hadn't changed, but she would now drive under influence. She was sleeping around, a lot, but the most drastic change had been her anger.

She was always so quick to get aggressive.

I knew there was something wrong with her but trying to make her see that was like talking to a brick wall.

Now thinking about the kiss I had shared with her, well, I obviously felt bad for it. I knew somewhere deep inside Winter there was something for me, no matter how much we both tried to deny it. I knew kissing her was wrong, but in the moment of trying to make her see her problem and holding her so close to me... it just kind of happened.

Kissing Winter was confusing and exhilarating at the same time, and in moments like that I would forget that I would see her in class next Monday at school.

Living with her obviously had done a number on our relationship, which was why I was so set on getting out of here. Winter and I needed space from each other even though neither of us wanted it. I could read Winter like a book, mostly because she always spoke her mind, but I knew she didn't want me to leave.

Which was also a little flattering.

I remembered when I had moved in initially, and how upset she had been at first. I knew me moving in wasn't the best thing for either one of us, but at the time it had been my only choice.

Now I was moving out and somewhere deep inside me wished I didn't have to.

I looked at the door, wondering what exactly Winter was up to right now. I wasn't tired, and I was actually pretty restless because of the earlier events. A part of me wanted to check on her, mostly because of everything I had laid on her in the past few hours, but another sensible part of me refused.

Thinking about Winter confused me. My heart would get this weird beat to it, my thoughts would run wild and I would actually get nervous.

Winter Kim actually made me nervous.

I could hear shuffling around the kitchen, which I took to be Winter because I also heard the door open and close.

Did she leave?
I sat up in the bed, wondering what I should do. If Winter was leaving that meant she would be driving drunk, because she had had a few beers and driving at this time at night wouldn't end good.