Set Fire To The Rain• Cesar Diaz

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3rd person pov

Cesar was sitting on a bed struggling to put a shirt on with the cast he has on.

Monse was laying in her bed, she lost her best friends

Jamal was throwing the RollerWorld money around as he was sitting in his bed

Aubelita brought a dish into the house, heading into the kitchen smiling as she passed the twins and Ruben, she kept heading to the kitchen where Geny was ironing something

"Geny" Abueltia said catching her attention, as she grabbed the dish from her, Abuelita opened the fridge for her, Geny set the dish in, as she closed it a picture fell off of the fridge

Geny grabbed it, only to start crying as she saw it was a picture of Lana, Olivia and Ruby

"I dont need you to baby me, Cesar" Lana said sitting on her bed with Cesars help

"I know, but this is all my fault, and i need to help any way i can" He said sitting far from her as she sighed

"Can you at least sit next to me?" She whispered looking at him

"Of course" he said before carefully going over and laying next to her, placing his cast covered arm over her waist

Lana looked over to see Olivia's bed in her room, and all her stuff where she left it.

Lana let out a cry as Cesar whispered to her, as she cried

"Im sorry, im so sorry" he sniffled as she shook her head

"I-i need it out, i cant look at it" she said as he nodded

"how about you lay here and ill move it all out?" he offered as she nodded

He kissed her forehead before wiping her tears

"Hey" Lana called waking up catching Cesar's attentin

"hi, baby, how was your sleep?" he asked coming over and kneeling down

"It was okay" she lied, she couldn't get the gun shots and the screams and her mom's cry out of her head, every time she closed her eyes that's all she heard

"You can talk to me, Lana, i know you dont sleep" he said moving the hair out of her face

"I cant sleep, everytime i try to sleep i relive it" she admitted

"hey, how about we re move my room around so its not the same, and we keep the bed and you can stay with me, well you already are, i mean you can sleep in a bed and not on the floor cause you're scared of hurting me" she rambled as he smiled a little

"Are you sure?" he asked as she nodded

"You wanna help me, this will help me more than you know" she said as he kissed her before helping her sit up

"Mija" Abuelita called knocking on the door

"You can come in!" She called as Cesar smiled opening the door for her, as he made his way out to give them privacy

"They didnt have your favorite cake, so i got ice cream instead" she said as Lana nodded

"Thank you, Abuelita, Te Amo"

"Te Amo, i just wanted your and Rubys first meal and desert out of the hospital extra special, but they seemed to be out of everythin-" She said but was cut off by Lana

"You know whats crazy? Cesar and I went through Liv's stuff, and it all fix into one box, i realized she used most of my stuff, not that i mind, but its crazy. Ruby and I never got to give her our other gifts" She said chuckling a little wiping a tear away

"And i dont wanna send it to her parents, i dont know what to do with it, i kept deciding to put it in the box, open it or throw it away"

"Do what feels best" Abuelita said looking at her, she knew she was slowly breaking day by day, and one day she was going to shatter

"I feel so selfish for not going to her meorial"

"You were in the hospital, Mija. You could barely walk"

"i mean, at least you and Ruby get your own room" She chuckled as Lana looked at her

"Too soon?"

"A bit"

"im sorry, im no good with this. I never know what to say."

"I might not of said it but i still hated her a little, she just took Cesar's attention from me and right to her, she even kissed him. But i cant hate her anymore, i hate myself for hating her now that she's gone. I hate myself for not making sure he was gone. i hate myself for freezing and not pushing Ruby or Olivia away.I hate myself now cause i cant even get dressed alone, i cant do my hair alone, i cant shower alone, i cant do anything alone, im helpless. I hate myself cause i cant sleep, and my mind wont let me not remember what happened, it's haunting me. Making me live it over and over, and i keep seeing what i did wrong, seeing that i had time to push them away" Lana full on sobbed as Abuelita got up and hugged her

"Sometimes i just wish i would of died, i cant- i cant deal with the constant reminder that something can get ruined from one thing" she cried trying to stop as it was hurting her stomach

"I hate myself cause i cant cry without being in pain" She said laughing a little

"you're strong, mija, you and ruby are gonna get through this" She smiled kissing the top of her head

"I know, i feel even worse cause Cesar is putting all the blame on him. Oscar made him join the gang, Oscar made him go into that bathroom and "kill" him, i don't blame Cesar for not killing Latrell if it was me or anyone else we wouldn't of done it. I feel like it was meant to happen, it happened for a reason, and it should only get better from now on" Lana shrugged letting out a breath, as Abuelita nodded

"Everything happens for a reason, Lana, just gotta wait and see what this one happened, and what was the reason for it"

Lana was now dressed in a black dress with a slit on the side, it was Olivia's favorite dress, it was a new year, and she wanted to wear it in honor of her.

Cesar was gonna stay in their room, he still hasnt see Ruby since it happened, he barely wanted to see Lana after it happened but she forced him to, she was gonna force him to be around Ruby, but they both need a second and she understands.

They'll reunite once they're both ready

"My baby!" Geny laughed going over and hugging Mario, Lana couldn't help but go back to that night, hearing her mom cry for them to not die.