His Savior || Negan

Chapter Six

Jordyn's POV

We'd gone back to the Sanctuary to talk, I could feel the tension in Alexandria and figured it would be easier on everyone if we werent here. 

I stormed up to Negans room, him trying not to fall behind. I sat on his bed and waited for him to sit beside me. "I never meant that you were just "some girl" or a fuck toy to me. You are my world, I honeslty don't know where id be if I never met you. I know how the wording seemed when I said it, but its not how I meant it and I am sorry babygirl" He said, sitting on the bed. 

"I was just pissed off, you'd said that and also said you refused to change your ways. What good are we going to be together if you refuse to change? The communities cannot live with the trade the way it is. It is NOT doable for anyone!" I said. "I will change. There is no other way to do the trade" Negan said. "Yes there is. But your pussy ass men need to learn how to scavenge" I said.

"So tell me, how?" Negan asked. "Instead of half of what they find goes to you, only a fourth does. In return we scavenge and grow crops, and we give them a fourth also." I said. "AND your men need to change their fucking attitudes" I added, quickly. "They're just hard asses" Negan said. "No, they are just dickheads. Their attitudes change and so does this lame ass excuse for a trade plan" I said. 

Negan put his hands up, "Okay, okay. We do things your way."

Negan had announced the new trade plan to his Saviors. We would scavenge, plant, and hunt ourselves. Only trading what we needed with the other communities. We were supposed to go meet the other communities to announce the new trade plan, but I had a feeling more people were going to bitch and moan. Most of the Saviors had an issue, they didn't want to do extra work and anytime a snicker or anything Negan threatened to kill them. 

There was a middle point between all of the communities. Negan, Dwight, and I waited there for the other leaders. Everyone else showed up, their guard was sky high and I don't blame them. 

"What's this about?" Daryl grunted. "Ah, hello to you too Dare Bear." I said sarcastically. "Hi everyone. I know how all of you feel about Negan, quite frankly I don't blame you either, he's kind of an asshole." I said.  Negan gave me the side eye.

"Shut it, you know you are. Anyways, all of you have been extremely unhappy with how the current trade situation is going. I, myself have come up with a better deal that I think everyone will be happy with." I said.

"Okay, lets hear it" The king said. "First things first, the Saviors are going to be growing, farming, scavenging, and hunting. Instead of half of everyones shit, everyone gives a forth. If you need something we have, we evenly trade, and vise versa." I replied.

"We want half of your shit each time" Maggie said. "No, see that's not how were doing shit anymore. Those of you on board with the plan I just fucking gave, great. Those of you not, piss off" I said. "I think that fair, its a hell of a lot of a better deal then what we had before" Rick said, everyone else agreed and eventually Maggie did too. 

Negan waited in the truck while I pulled the others aside. "Look, I'm not taking the Saviors over. But I am going to make damn sure that we all get along, we all can live together and that nobody else fucking dies. You're all here because I kept my mouth shut, Glenn and Abe died because of me. I am going to make damn sure that I keep the peace for everyones sake. I'm just asking that you all work with me, please" I said. 

"You didn't force Negan to kill them Jordyn, you cannot carry that guilt with you" Michonne said. "But it is my fault. Had I just come clean about him sooner maybe I couldve kept you guys out of Virginia. Maybe they would still be alive" I sighed. 

"This wasn't your fault" Daryl said. "Yeah? Then why the fuck do you and Maggie both resent me? Both of you give me that pissed off look packed full hatred. If it isn't my fault why the fuck do you make me feel like it is?!" I shouted. 

"Because you're with him, you watched him kill my husband and Abe and left it happen. You should've opened your fucking mouth and you chose to be a scared little bitch. Glenn died and is missing out on his childs life because of you! I fucking hate you and that bastard right there. I wish we never met you Jordyn, you have been nothing but a fucking problem. I hope Negan turns on you, I hope he bashes in your skull like he did to Glenn." Maggie spit. By this point Negan was out of the truck and standing behind me, tears welled in my eyes. 

"Maggie that is enough! It was not and is not her fucking fault!" Rick shouted. "You hate me too, Daryl, don't you?" I asked, tears running down my cheeks. "I don't hate you, but I don't like you much right now. You and I had such a good thing going Jordyn, fuckin Christ you made me fall in love with you and you just go and leave me for this prick? Seriously? He killed two of your "family" members right in front of you and you just go right back. You're such a stupid ass girl" Daryl said.

"Fuck both of you. Maggie you're such a bitch, and Daryl as for you, we were having casual sex. There were supposed to be no fucking strings attached. Fuck both of you!" I shouted, tears pouring down my face. Negan grabbed my waist and pulled me away to leave. 

I could hear Rick shouting at both Daryl and Maggie, but what could he say differently? In a way, both of them were right. What the fuck was I doing back with Negan? Could I really have the silly little life I always imagined with Negan? Fuck!