Don't worry (depressed denki x Shinsou

Chapter 10

Denki pov

Cold...

I feel so cold right now, so cold and empty, like there's nothing inside me right now. I've been sitting in Shinsou's room for a couple of hours trying and desperately failing to fall asleep.

"You still awake?" I hear Shinsou ask me, I hum in response. Every now and then Shinsou would ask if I'm awake and I'll only hum in response, letting him know I'm awake.

It's been about two hours since he found out, and i can't tell if I regret it or not. I really don't want to have this talk, but I know he's going to force me. Maybe he'll just forget about it and I won't have to have this talk with him.

I don't even know why he pretending to care about me, we all know I deserve it. I mean wouldn't it be better if I was just not here to ruin their life? I know I shouldn't think like this, but I know it's true.

I don't even know what's going to happen. Is Shinsou going to tell everyone? Or is he just going to stay quiet? I hope he doesn't tell anyone. I don't need more people to pretend they care about me, like Shinsou.

"Kaminari." I feel the bed dip down slightly, I open my eyes and see Shinsou has sat next to me and is now looking at me, quickly making eye contact as he says this "I know your only having bad thoughts right now, so is there anything I can do to help?"

Help? That's a funny word.

Who would want to help me?

I know  I wouldn't.

I simply shake my head no, not having enough energy to talk right now, or it could be the fact that I feel like I'll break down if I talk, but who knows.

"Kami... come here" Shinsou softly pulls me into a hug. I immediately cuddle close to him and lay my head against his chest. I know he's probably only doing this so he looks like a good person but, I desperately need someone to hold me right now.

His arms are around me, holding me close, like he's trying to save me. One of his arms is around my waist, holding me tight, but not to tight, against him, and the other is softly running through my hair.

I'm not going to lie, the feeling of his hand in my hair, and being close to him, feeling his warmth. This feels amazing. It's like I've been gifted a whole box of my favorite chocolate.

I close my eyes again, loving the warmth coming off of his body. I think I might have accidentally snuggled closer to him, because his grip around my waist got tighter, but I'm not sure.

I love this feeling to much to care what I'm doing right now.

All of a sudden all of the exhaustion from today finally decided to hit me like a truck. Now feeling extremely tired I let my body go limp as my thoughts move out of my crowded head.

Shinsou's pov

The only thought in my head are all questions.

Why would he do this?

What made him do this?

When did he start?

How long has this been going on?

Why haven't I noticed sooner?

I feel his body go limp against mine, I think he finally feel asleep. I pull him closer to me, even though he's already really close, I manage to somehow get him closer to me.

I'm glad he finally fell asleep. He needs rest. I wish I would've noticed sooner that he was doing this, I don't want to see him hurt. I don't know why, but kaminari is different from everyone else.