Don't worry (depressed denki x Shinsou

Chapter 13

Tw: a lot of self harm stuff in this chapter

Thanks to @RubyAva82 for the suggestion by the way, I appreciate it. _______________________________

Shinsou's pov

Shit.

Shit shit shit. I hurriedly get out of the bed a make my way over to the door, the door to which kaminari is.

"Kaminari!" I bang on the door... no answer "kaminari open the door I know your in there!" Still I get no answer back.

I try the door handle even though I already know it's lock. What do I do?! He's not answering the door, who knows what he could be doing to himself.

Stay calm.

I need to stay calm.

If he's not going to open this door, then I'm going to open it for him. Okay. What in his room can open that door.

I quickly look around, I need to find something, anything that I can use to open this door.

His desk!

He has to have something there that I can use, I'll use anything at this point. I look around, all he has are papers, pens, pencils, a screwdriver... a screwdriver! I can use that! I grab the screwdriver and rush back over to the door to his bathroom. I put the flat head screwdriver into the door lock and turn it.

Click

I open the door, quickly looking all over the small bathroom, seeing him sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall as blood drips from his arms that lay limply on his lap...

No. No no no no. Shit. "Kaminari!" I rush over and kneel down to next to him, but before I can get any closer to him, he's backing away. Backing up to now having his back against the wall of the shower. Backing up so he away from me...

"G-get away from me!" He screams, tears flowing from his beautiful yellow golden eyes. He's scared... I think slowly. I need to calm him down. I try to get closer to him by the tiniest bit "Kami-" "N-no! G-get away!" He cuts me off in the middle of me saying his name.

What do I do, what do I do?! I'm panicking but I know that I need to stay calm. For him.

I back away by the slightest bit, and hold my arms up so he knows I'm not trying anything. "Kaminari" I speak in a low, gentle voice, "your okay, everything is fine. Just calm down" I need to get him to calm down, I need to clean up his wounds.

"I-I can't!" His breathing is staggered  as he continues, "l-leave, I-I n-need to b-be alone" I can't leave him alone, what is he thinking?! "I can't leave you alone! I need to help you kaminari!"

Oh no. I shouldn't have said that, at least not as loud as I did. "No! No no no no no! Go! GO!" His hands reach up as he pulls on his hair. Causeing more pain on himself then there already is.

Shit!

What do I do?!

He won't calm down, I try speaking in a more gentle voice, "kaminari, please. Let me help you." But again as last time his response is only a more panicked yell of "GO! PLEASE GO!"

What do I do? I can't just sit by and let him continue to hurt himself, but no matter what I do it doesn't help. I need to think. I need to think quickly. I've been able to help him every single time. Why is it different now? Did I do something wrong? Of course I did, I talked to loud making him panic more, stupid me!

He's already scared of me right now, and for what I can see there no changing that until after he's done panicking. He may be scared of me, but maybe not someone else.