Anal is better

If only

Michael got back from watching the track meet. Yes watching, pft you think I run! Your funny. He only went because his friend Luke went there to see his boyfriend, and he wanted him to come with him. Right now he's practicing playing the guitar, that's how he escapes things. His dad got mad because he was late coming home, but unlike most parents he grabbed a fistful of Michael's hair and shoved him onto the counter telling him what a worthless piece of shit he was. But it was okay, he was used to it by now even if his side was throbbing. After about the 10th chord he got wrong he gave up and crawled into bed, well his mattress. His dad said he didn't deserve a real one. As he laid down on the "bed" he groaned because he remembered the first day of school was tomorrow. The first day was always the worst, he never knows where to sit at lunch and one time he got kicked off a table because they said he looked to much like a freak. He sighed and rubbed against the not so healed up scars on his forearms. At least he had Luke, and now Ashton (who was Luke's boyfriend) he hoped at least, he didn't want to ruin Luke's relationship because he was a freak, he can't help it. If only he could change that day. Wait no he shouldn't think about that day anymore there's nothing he can do to change it no matter how much he wished he could. And with that as his final thought he went to sleep with tears dripping down his face.