Poems

I Write

  Who do I write to?
  I write to no one and everyone
  I write to my parents and my friends
  I write to God and the boy I like

  Why do I write?
  I write to be heard by someone, anyone
  I write about my feelings and share them with strangers because I feel like the most important people in my life wouldn't care
  I write because I don't think they would understand, even if they tried

  I write for myself because sometimes I can't carry all of my emotions alone
  I write because the paper is the only one I can share my burdens with
  I write because I know it wouldn't judge me, even if it didn't understand me

  I write because school counseling didn't help
  I write because if I talked, the counselor would talk to my parents
  I write because if that happened my parents would yell because I could no longer talk

  In short, I write because I can't talk
  Talking is too permanent, too real
  I can't edit or rewrite what I say and that makes my throat close up and then I words would come out even if I wanted them to
  Writing is the only way to avoid being crushed by my emotions
  Writing is how I avoid dying