The pain i had to go through

CHAPTER 5:Is this really happening

Now i was fully out but i had a hard time trying to be me i felt no one would like me if i acted a certain way.then once i got to school in my fith periodi just come from gym,i felt someone was watching me so i turned around.four boys was staring at me then one pushed me on the locker and then told the others to get out the room.he told me ill show you what i do to faggets like you.he started trying to pull down my pants i tried to run but he pulled me back then punched me.he put his hands around my neck and stared choking my getting tighter.he rose me higher ,then he started letting go then he dropped me as he dropped.I seen a boy tall browned skinned dimples (he just got threw takin a shower after gym)he was fine and he had his shirt off.(look in mulimedia to see him)
He helped me up and said hey my name is trey and you need to learn how to fight back,he joked.then he dragged the knocked out boy out the room. "So you must be the gay boy everybody talks about".I say yeah then he tells me "well if it makes you feel any better im gay too" then smiles at me.then i smile back and as the bell rings to go to my next class he walks me to my sixth period.by the time we reached my class we had told each other everthing about ourselves.He told me to meet him at the tree in front of the school.I was so happy waiting for the clock to hit 3:30.this boy seemed so nice was it a dream prank i had to be cautious so i decided he was lyin about er thing and decided not to go.the next day he came up to me in fith period and asked what happened,i said if you tryna play agame with me im mot in the mood.He looked at me like i was crazy and said if i was playin a joke why would i have helped you or even gave you yhe time of day.then he looked at me and said i just want to get to know you and smiled.then he gave me his number and i gave him mine then after school i met him by the tree.
We stayed after and talked and makin each other laugh for about an hour.then my moma called me worryin askin where i am and am i hurt i tottally about home so we said goodbye i got in my car he got in his.I was so anxious about the next day i stayed up thinkin about it.once i woke up i realized it was saturday i didnt go to school.The whole day i didnt feel like doin nothin.then i told myself,you only knew this boy for two days why am i actin like this so i calm down and just as i do he calls me. (Aah i breath and pick up the phone).Hey i say in a calm voice,then he says hello(his voice is so bueatiful).we talk the whole day until my momma call me to take out the trash (seem like she always messin up sum thing.so i take out the trash and when i get back he ask me do i want to go to the brickside park.i asked him where did he live cuz that house is aroubd the corner from my house.He told me to walk out the house so i did i said ok tjen i seen him walk out a house onto the street then i waved at him and he laughed and waved back.I told my mom i was goin to the park with my freind she said okay and kissed me on my forehead.he waited outside for me we walked to the park then around our neighborhood just talkin.Everyday after this we did this after school and on the weekends.about two months of us meeting he texted me to walk to the park i got there and he was sitting there already.I didnt know to expect so i just went with it and smiled.he looked so serious once i said hi to him he looked me in my eyes and told me he loved me and asked me to be his boyfreind and tell me all he thinks about at night is me and he cant stand another minute of us not bein together.
I just stared at him in shock then he started cryin.and he said i know you dont feel the same way and got up to walk away.i grabbed his hand and pulled him back and he turned around and kissed me.after that day we was goin out.at school i acted like we was just freinds cuz i didnt want more people to bully me or people to start bullyin trey
One day when trey walked me to class he was gettin ready to leave to his class and turned around to give me a kiss and i pulled back and whispered not in public.he looked at me like i was stupid and he said out loud what you mean not in public i thought we go out what are you ashamed of me.I gestured him to be quiet he said no i wont be quiet cuz i love you and i want everyone to know.Then he grabbed my face and kissed me in front of everybody but i didnt care.after school he came up to my car and asked why i dont like tellin people about us i told him i was scared.He told me hes not afraid to be what he is and i should embrace it just like he does he told me the difference between them two is he doesnt care who knows about him and he dont let people push him around and so his words stuck with me the whole night.He got out my car and left and i decided to enbrave who i was starting tomorrow.The things trey tells me and his not caring attitude and that he knows makes me think this is too good to be true and i some times have to ask myself is this really happening.