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Chapter 9: On The Head of a Pin

POV:Y/n

Another person died, another life lost to this stupid war between things, and a possible coming of Satan that theoretically should not even be real! And she's dead because of me. I keep on thinking about this on repeat. That I'm not even paying attention to the tense conversation going on between my two brothers. "Y/n did you hear me?" Sam asked me from looking at the rear-view mirror. My eyes were starting to tear up from me staring at the window without blinking and things were becoming blurry. "Huh? What?" He kind of huffs.

"I said Ruby will meet us outside Cheyenne. She's been tracking some leads. I know she's not exactly on your Guys Christmas list, but if she can help us get to Lilith—" Of course it's Ruby. My favorite person along with Alice from Hell-land. "Look Sam I couldn't really give a rat's ass. If you work with her or not. "I said back tired of this bullshit because of Ruby. "I agree with her." Dean said as he looked back at me nodding letting me know he was standing with me. "What's your guy's problem?" "Pamela didn't want anything to do with this and we dragged her back into it, Sam. I did." I said back at him quickly, getting madder at myself and slowed down thinking about my words.

"She knew what was at stake." Sam responded and, in that moment, I really just wanted to scream. "" She knew what was at stake." you know what, fuck off Sam a person should not have to practically die every time they help us, we're doing such a damn good job! So, Pam dying was totally not in vain." I finished with a tear running down my face. Both boys look at each other than at me. "Y/n-" "I'm so tired of burying friends Guys." "Look, we catch a fresh trail—" Sam said, trying to move on. "And we follow it, we know. Like we said, we're just—we're just getting tired." Dean answered for us. "Well, get angry." Sam responded. Oh, I'm basically the hulk at this point.

We get our room keys and all I want to do is get drunk and cry myself to sleep but I guess someone else had a different Idea. "Ah, Home crappy home" Dean said dis heartedly flipping on the lights. Just once it would be nice to have a room that didn't look and smell like it was made by a drunk guy who hadn't showered in three days. When the lights come on their standing is Cas and my bestie Uriel. "Winchesters" Uriel said with a hint of disgust. "Oh, come on." Dean said in return. "You are needed." Needed really, we can't ever catch a break huh? "Needed? We just got back from needed." Dean said standing up for us while I was trying to keep myself from going full Winchester on Uriel. "Now, you mind your tone with me." Well, I tried.

"No, you mind your damn tone with us." I said, stepping up to Uriel. "We just got back from Pamela's funeral." Sam said adding in to drive the fact into these Angels that a life was just lost for their stupid war. I kept it going. "Pamela. You know, psychic Pamela? You remember her. Cas, you remember her. You burned her eyes out. Remember that? Good times. Yeah, then she died saving one of your precious seals. So maybe you can stop pushing us around like chess pieces for five freaking minutes!" I know Cas didn't mean for that to happen but in that minute all I saw was red and I was ready to start my own war.

"We raised your brother out of hell for our purposes." Dean stepped next to us. "Yeah, what were those again? What exactly did you want from me?" "Start with gratitude." Ok I'm about to go WWE on him. "Dean, we know this is difficult to understand." Cas said to him trying to reason with him. "And we—" Uriel looked at Cas in a very weird way and he looked back. "—don't care. Now, seven angels have been murdered, all of them from our garrison. The last one was killed tonight." Uriel finished in a very serious voice. Wait Angels being murdered dammit now I got to care for Cas's sake now if it was just Uriel, I could live with that. "Demons? How they doing it?" Dean questioned and how do we know it was demons I mean I guess it makes sense, but could they be that careless and dumb never mind, Ruby is one of them.