Because of the fire.

chapter thirteen

I turned around "yes, Kyle."
He caught up with me, "so what do you think?"
I must've looked lost and blank because he sorta chuckled.
"what do I think about what?"
"is it the most romantic language, Spanish? "
I knew it was just a conversational topic but this whole Kyle and romance questions scenario.. "and why would you assume I knew about which language is romantic and which isn't? "
The look on his face made me regret my words instantly. I did want to say sorry but the words somehow got stuck on my throat.
"I was just trying to make conversation Tracy. "
"I bet you were, " i said indifferently.
Who have I turned into?!
The silence was so uncomfortable that I started feeling bad.
Say sorry Tracy come on!
But then I thought of my text. One that I'd written from my heart. He didn't show all the boys but was it really that fun topic that deserved to be shown to Trevor too. I bet if it had been the other way round I wouldn't have shown Becky a text like that. Not that she was around but if she was...
You know you would!
Ok ok maybe I would but that's different that's a girl thing and we only do that when we're excited not wanting to embarrass someone...
Tracy focus!!
I looked at Kyle who was now staring ahead while walking besides me.
"I'm going to the swim practice now. Bye. I'll see you tomorrow."
He was about to say something but I didn't wait for it. I quickened my pace. After a few steps I turned back, Kyle was already walking in the other direction. I quickened my pace to catch up with him.
"Kyle.. "
He turned. "I'm sorry. "
He just acknowledged me not saying anything.
"I'm sorry about earlier. I mean I was harsh and it was uncalled for. "
His eyes transitioned from glaze to soft. "it's okay."
"no it's not okay and I'm sorry for it. Bye Kyle."
"bye. I'll see you tomorrow. "
At least you got it out.
In my head it had been so rational to lash out at Kyle. He deserved it but why did I feel even much better after just saying sorry for my rudeness. I didn't understand it but my head felt clearer as I made my way to the gymnasium and out to where the pool was. Maybe I shouldn't have even lied about having to watch Earl and heard Kyle out....