Endi~Rebelde

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(pls read the intro it will give a lot of context to the story)

Pov~Emilia

After we talked to Sebas, MJ left to go talk to Dixon and maybe spend the night. I was brushing my teeth in the bathroom when I hear Andi whisper something to Jana, "Thank you Jana I owe you one," then I heard the door shut. I peek outside the the door and see it's just me and Andi. Carajo. What the hell did she say to Jana and why did she leave me and Andi in the room? I finish brushing my teeth and walk out to the room and see Andi in her shorts and sweatshirt.

My sweatshirt. Well, it's not technically mine but it is. The sweatshirt I always used to wear and sneak out of her room with and surprise her with a couple of days later. "Where did Jana go?" Her face goes a little pink. "Oh uh her mom is in town and she wanted to go see her." That's a lie Jana does not like her mom. At least not enough to go out of her way and see her. Why is she lying? Andi turns around and goes to get something out of a drawer and I can't help but stare. Her hair is gorgeous, one of my favorite things about her. "Hey are you done in the bathroom?" she asks, "Oh um let me get my charger I'm sorry" I feel so bad being in her way. After coming to her room and not kissing her, even though I want to so badly. I can't, not until I at least get a job even if it's being a bartender or waitress. I'm desperate to stay here. I can't leave here again. I can't leave her again, but is that what is best for us both?

I sit down on the couch, take a deep breath, and look around. This room is filled with memories in every corner. She still has the stuffed animal I gave her. Our pictures. My favorite blanket. It's all too much. My eyes start to brim with tears. They are burning, begging to overflow, but Andi is right there. My anxiety has been through the roof with looking for a job, having to go back to Brazil, missing andi. Oh my God, I miss her, she's in the same room with me and I miss her. I come back to reality and realize I haven't been breathing this whole time, the tears in my eyes are heavier and so is my breath.

"Breathe Emilia just breathe" I turn to see the voice that's talking to me and Andi is kneeling in front of me holding my hands. I can't look at her, not like this. She grabs my chin and brings my eyes to hers, " Hey don't do that, look at me, que onda? estas bien?" " Oh um yeah I'm just really tired I need some sleep." I feel so bad lying but she doesn't need this right now. "En serio Emilia what's wrong?"

I lay down on the couch on the pillow she gave me and pulled the blanket up. "I'm just ready to go to sleep that's all!" her face drops and she just nods her head. She turns the light off and climbs to her bed. I don't mean to be mean but I can't just come back and put all my shit on her being in the room is enough stress for her she doesn't need any more.

20 mins later

I can't sleep. I keep tossing and turning, moving my leg off the couch and back on. Im exhausted not physically but mentally aka nothing sleep can fix. I should've gone to a hotel. All I can think about is her. I'm in the same room as her and I'm treating her like a stranger. After about 5 more minutes of tossing I hear Andi.

"Emilia come up here"No mames don't do this to me. don't make this any harder than it already is "I'm okay Andi I'm just not tired." "Emilia I'm not arguing with you come up here, you hate that couch." Damn, she's right. I sit up and think about what I'm about to do. Do I go up there? Do I lie again? Fuck it. I climb up there not knowing what is about to happen.

I climb on the bed and sit at the edge"Que quieres Andi?" "Come here, you don't need to sleep on the couch. "Andi it's really-" she grabs my hand forcing me to look at her "Emilia Come on." She lays back down and pats the space next to her. I hesitantly climb over and lay as far as possible without literally being flat against the wall. I stare at the wall for a while thinking. The one person I love the most and I can't be with her. As her sheets collect my tears I feel her moving. Then she pulls me around and looks me in the eyes. "Emilia stop" She wipes my tears and stares me in the eyes for a minute. She rubs her hand on my cheek before kissing where the tear was.

No, I can't There is too much going on she has too much going for her. She doesn't need to be hung up on the poor ms favela who is going to be ripped away from her more likely than not. "Andi we can't" My tears fall faster saying those words out loud makes them so much more real. "Emilia let me be here for you, you're the one person in the world I wanna be with no matter what. I don't care if we can't be together te amo siempre and I just wanna be here, with you in this moment."I don't know if I'm about to ruin things or make them better. I put my hand on her cheek and kissed her. Tears of fear and nostalgia stream. her lips immediately reciprocate and delicately press against mine. my stomach fills with butterflies. I have been longing for this. for her. She pulls away and looks into my eyes with hope and sadness. She pulls me back in for another kiss deeper than the last. I can tell she doesn't think this is a good idea, but she misses this as much as I do and she is getting all she can out of it. I run my fingers through her hair while she has a firm grip on my waist. I push my body against her trying to get as close to her as I can. I pull away realizing what the fuck was happening and stared at her.

"No pasa nada Emilia just go to sleep." She rolls over and I can hear the disappointment in her voice. I roll her back over to face me and put my head on her chest. She kisses the top of my head and closes her eyes.  Her breath slows and her grip on my waist loosens. I can't help but think out loud "I love you Andi even when it hurts too." with that I drift to sleep.

A/N I did not proofread bc I was really just trying to get this out. also, the parts in Spanish are in italics so yall aren't confused and think I'm making up words