Trevor
I've fucked up, real bad.
I told her to just leave and get out when we could've talked about it and maybe we would still be together.
Seeing her cry broke me and I can't believe I just let her leave.
I feel so guilty.
I can't believe I let her go.
To be honest I sort of shouted at Jamie yesterday because he commented on her private account, I feel bad.
I apologised to him over and over again, he kept telling me it was okay but it wasn't.
"Trevor come on" Mason nudges me.
I finish tying my skates and stand up and head onto the ice.
"What's even up with you?" He asks.
"Nothing I'm fine" I tell him.
"Your clearly not" Mason passes the puck to me "just cause Ariella went back to London?".
"Nah it's not that" I shake my head "just got a lot of shit on my mind".
"Alright" he nods.
Not because she went to London because we fucking broke up.
I can't even explain what I'm feeling right now but it's like my heart is tearing and I can't breathe.
Fans are still saying stuff and I can't even look her her account or even like any of her posts.
I feel so guilty.
All I keep thinking about is her but my thoughts get switched off by me hitting into the boards.
"The fuck!" I smack my glove against the ice.
"Guys bring it in!" Coach shouts.
We all skate over and take a knee.
"Firstly Trevor what's going on man your not even near the puck!" He raises his voice.
"Sorry coach" I apologise "just shit going on right now I'll be fine".
"You better we've got a game soon and I don't want to being like this son we've got to win!" He shakes his head "get back in position!".
Right now I want to sleep I haven't been really getting any and I'm struggling.
We all skated away and Jamie came up towards me.
"I know it's hard with Ariella I know" he pats my shoulder.
"Thanks Jimbo" I fix my gloves.
"She'll come back" he tells me.
"Hopefully" I nod.
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