Perfect Fit

Chapter 11

The waves of heat, pain, and discomfort slowly started to fade. A moment ago, I couldn't even think straight, but now my head is clear so clear that my desire awakened.

For months, all I ever felt during my rut was pain and fever. I didn't want anything or anyone touching me, so i never wore anything during those 2 days. Now that I don't feel those things, my desire is clear.

Then, I was distracted from my thoughts by movement close to me so close that I could even hear the person's heartbeat. I don't want another repeat of what happened with Zhan, so I tried to move back. Each time, I create distance from the person they seem to close the gap.

I opened my eyes to see who the person might be.

I was shocked to see that the person holding on to me tightly is Zhan. How? Did I wander into his room without being aware?

I took a quick look around the room, and I was 100% sure that I was in my room, on my bed.

Why is Zhan here?

"Zhan, wake up."

He didn't budge.

"Hey, wake up. You need to let go of me."

"No, I like this bed."

Ag, this guy, he is not going to make this easy for me. I am trying to protect him. This is more than testing my patience. The way he smells, the way he feels on my skin, the way....no, no, no. I can't allow my mind to have such thoughts. This could get very dangerous for both of us. No, the baby, too. I need to get out of here.

"OK, ok, let go first so I can go to the other room. If you like this bed, you can have it. I will go to the other room."

He sat up like he just realized something.

"We can't sleep apart. What if we try sleeping in the same room. I know it sounds crazy and trust me when I say if I could control what I am doing, I would. I am struggling with the distance, I am only calm here."

He scouted even closer as he spoke. And because he was getting upset, he wasn't even aware that he was releasing his pheromones. He keeps talking, and I am over here fighting for all our lives with every ounce of self-control that i could master. Did this guy not hear me say that my rut was coming on?

I had to resort to holding my breath.

"Zhan, I agree we can try sleeping on the same bed. We can do everything you want together, but not today. Today and tomorrow won't be a good idea. I don't feel like our first day of staying together will end well if you stay here any longer. And please, can you control your pheromones? It's not making things easy for me and my situation."

"Why can't we try?"

"Well, to be honest, I want nothing more than to rip your clothes off of you and have my way with you. I want you so bad that it scares me because I have never longed for anyone like I am longing for you right now. So I am begging you, please, not tonight."

We both sat in silence for a while, just staring at each other. He kept looking at my face and then looked down at my very hard member, then back at my face. His actions were making things even worse for me.

"I want to leave, but I can't. I don't want to make things hard for you either, but I don't know how to help you. I know for a fact that I don't want to satisfy your rut, but I can see that you look like you are in a lot of discomfort down there. So, like I said, I can help you within reason."

"I don't want your help, at least not in that way. I prefer that you let me have the distance, just for 2 nights after that you can do as you please. If we keep going back and forth like this, i am afraid i will do something stupid. So before that happens, please let me leave, Zhan."