Gym Buddies

31

"I wish I was shot" Hobi confessed. "What nonsense!" Alexa screeched. "Hobi, please tell me you've not been blaming yourself for this. All this time. We're all equally to blame. She wouldn't have wanted to see us like this" Jin sighed. "You don't get it!" Hobi lost it. "He held me at gunpoint. And then she told me to duck and I ran with his gun and I ran to hyung and then-" he started breaking down again. "I can't. I can't" he held onto Yoongi's collar. "Hyung please. Erase my memory please. I can't do this" he started screaming and clawing at the elder's shirt who held him tighter in response. 

"Hobi what's wrong?" Jin asked softer this time. "She died because of me" he yelled. "That's not what happened!" Jin exclaimed louder this time. "She died because of me and Yoongi hyung almost died because of me as well!" he screamed and the room went dead silent. "What?" Jimin asked. "It's all because of me. It's me" Hobi bawled. "That's not true!" Namjoon shook his head. "What does that mean?" Jin asked in a low tone. "Somebody tell us!" Jungkook hollered. "It's not true right? What she said makes sense now!" Jungkook clasped his mouth as if he was going to throw up.

"Gguk! Think rationally. The guilt of a dead person ruining your friend or all of you closing this chapter for once and for all. As a happy memory." she spoke sternly. "Why didn't you tell us? Alone. This long?!" Jungkook teared up. "What the hell are you guys talking about?" Taehyung questioned. All heads turned to Hobi.

"Please not me. Not me" Hobi hollered covering his ears now. "Can't you see? They don't blame you. Nobody does" Yoongi cradled him. "I do! I can see her! The officer that psycho was murdering! And I did nothing! He was knifing the officer down. And I did nothing! I just stood there like a coward!" he yelled. "So tell them that. Tell them what happened. Tell them what you see, what you feel. They won't know what you feel like until you show them and we all know it didn't happen on purpose. They know that it wasn't on purpose. Just tell them!" she held his hand. 

"Tell us what happened hyung" Jimin looked concerned. "Please, please don't hate me. Please" he begged. "None of us will. How could we?" Taehyung teared up. "Tell them" Namjoon added. "I didn't do this on purpose. When I was on gunpoint, she told me to get down and he focused more on holding me tighter, so I grabbed his gun and dashed. And I ran straight to hyung and she was shooting that psycho" Hobi continued getting off of Yoongi's lap. They were still holding hands. " And I lost a bit of balance and we came under the sun like the sunlight coming in through the windows and she noticed that" Yoongi added in case Hobi would omit that part and blame himself. 

"And then she pushed us away but she was shot down" Hobi could've sworn he felt his blood pulsing through his veins. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that it happened because of me. I'm sorry. I might as well have gotten shot instead. I'm so sorry. I'm-" he repeated on loop until he noticed Jimin walking to him. Remembering his past nightmares, he instinctively shut his eyes thinking Jimin would hit him for getting his girlfriend killed or leave him forever along with the members.

"Hyung" Jimin's voice came out pained. "I would never blame you neither would she. I can't forgive you on her behalf, only she can if that's what you want but, I don't think she would forgive you." Jimin said softly.