My hero | Billie Eilish

Chapter 3

I wake up with a pounding headache. Gosh yesterday was something. I turn around to see the rest of my bed empty. Billie left? We didn't even work on the project.

I get up to start getting ready for school. This time making sure i'm wearing something that covers up my marks and bruises so i can use as little makeup as possible.

This is what I was wearing. It wasn't something I would normally wear but it covers a lot. I get ready and walk down the stairs and sigh in relief as my dad wasn't home. Should I even call him dad anymore?

I haven't eaten in a while and my stomach is rumbling. I go to walk to the kitchen when I stop myself .

*start of flashback*

"You're so ugly"  Billie spits at me as she shoves my back against the lockers earning a wince.

"W-what?" I stutter trying to get words out but the pain is too much.

"You heard me. You are so fat and ugly you should just kys already." She says before shoving me again and let's go.

I watch as she walks off to join her group of friends that are continuing pointing and laughing at me.

I can hear their jokes and remarks. She's right, I am fat i'll just not eat and maybe I can loose a few pounds.

*End of flashback*

I turn around and walk out of the kitchen without getting anything to eat. I can last a little longer can't I? I'll have a tiny snack when I get home. Yeah i'll do that. I grab my bag that's at the foot of the door and walk to school.

I enter the school gate and walk to class earlier then usual. I pull my phone out of my pocket and text leah good morning and that i'll see her at lunch. Then I put my phone away and lay my head on the desk.

The bell rings and students start piling into their seats. I am in the back corner so no one really sits  next to me. The late bell rings and Billie walks in. I chose to ignore her and keep my head on the desk.

I can hear the noise from her chains approaching me. She sits in the seat right next to mine. Great. The teacher starts talking about whatever he always talks about since he just loves talking about random shit. He then mentions a topic of certain signs of when someone is being abused.

My leg starts bouncing up and down. I lift my head up from my arms and see that people's heads are turned to look at me. Including Billie's. Did she tell everyone? Why is everyone looking at me?

I feel my chest start to get heavier and I start to struggle to breathe. I quickly grab my bag and ran out of the class. I hate health. I go to the nearest bathroom and slide down the wall.

I'm having a panic attack

shit
shit
shit

I go to get my phone to text leah but my hands are too shaky and my eyes are blurry that I just gave up. I started to cry. Why in school? Out of all places? How does everyone know? Who told them? Did billie tell them? No she couldn't have. She wouldn't have. Actually yes she would.