💐•Not Your Bouquet•💐

Own up

Minho layed back on his chair and sighed turning off his phone. Fucking hell, out of anyone why Jisung? the first person he's actually interested in and feels comfortable with in a long time is an ableist asshole. I mean there has to be more to why he beat Hyunjin up no? it couldn't be simply because he happened to be autistic. Or maybe it is and he's just in denial because he likes this guy so much. Oh hell, that's just simply against his morals though, on top of that he had a neurodivergent best friend and works with kids who are mostly disabled and neurodivergent. he can't just push the fact that Jisungs a dick just because he likes the guy that just isn't right, nor does it make him any better. with that he opened his phone once again to text Jisung

10:15 pm

Min☆: Hey
J.H4NIE~: Yo, what's up?
Min☆: are you free tomorrow?
J.H4NIE~: Not really I get off work late
Min☆: ah.
Min☆: You wouldn't mind if I went and talked to you for a few right?
J.H4NIE~: I don't mind at all!
J.H4NIE~: my breaks at 2
Min☆: I wouldn't want to sour up your break to be honest
J.H4NIE~: Sour up?
J.H4NIE~: is there something wrong?
Min☆: I just have to talk to you about something important
J.H4NIE~: ?..
J.H4NIE~: You're scaring me
Min☆: I'll pass by around 12
J.H4NIE~: sure..?

The brunette turned off his phone again and brushed his hair back with his hand. This was going downhill, and fast.  Atleast now he started to piece up why Jisung reacted the way he did when he told him what his job was. He got up to grab something to eat then make himself comfortable to go to sleep.

The entire day Minho was nervous, getting stomach aches every 30 minutes. He was hoping this wouldn't be the end of his and the youngers friendship. He had hope, maybe false hope, but he had something, he HAD to or else he would full on panic and probably start crying. the hour he told Jisung he was going to pass by was approaching and rapidly. He sort of practiced what he would say, he wouldn't want to pull the younger off work then end up not knowing how to even begin.  Minho grabbed his keys and made his way to his car.

The older wasn't the only one suffering from nerves and anxiety. Jisung was all the same, or probably even worse, he was even shaking when he gave the customers their orders. Some even asked if he was ok, or if they needed to buy him something which he politely declined. He had no idea what Minho was going to talk to him about and why it was so important. It was so out of the blue and lacking in detail, all he knew is that it was "important" and that doesn't always mean good. He kept thinking if he had messed up yesterday or made Minho uncomfortable. He watched his actions and mannerisms around the older because he didn't want to scare him or anything. Did he still come across as too strong? it was their first time hanging out so maybe that was it. He was brought out of his thoughts when his coworker tapped him on the shoulder asking him if he was ok since he had been shaky all day and all of a sudden was zoning out. His head snapped to the door when a jingle was heard. He had been doing that all day, making sure that if it was Minho he would excuse himself. And this time it was. The older walked up to the desk, he looked nervous too, definitely more relaxed than Jisung though. "Hey..um, the usual and.. meet me outside" Jisung nodded.

After he made Minhos drink he told his coworker what they had to do as he went to his mom to excuse himself. Jisung took his apron off and went outside taking Minhos drink. He saw the older sitting on a table and he placed the drink on it then sat down. Minho took the drink and took a sip then placed it down in silence and sighed, putting his hands together then resting his head on them. "So" Jisung didn't know if he was slouching or not but he diffinetly sat up straight when he heard the others voice. "Why did you beat up Hyunjin?" Jisung felt like his chest just caved in, he was expecting anything but this, he was not ready to face the consequences of his actions. "What" He replied as if he was stupid, he didn't mean to say it but he was so caught off guard that it came out automatically. "Oh don't. Do not "what" me Han. Explain" Jisung sighed shakily and he looked down. Shame had hit him some days ago, but now it had completely splattered on his being almost like a bucket of water was thrown over him. "I..I was apologizing to Hyunjin for my behavior.. and he took it wrong-" "He? HE took it wrong? Jisung you're faced with the truth and you STILL, Part of you STILL thinks you're in the right?" The younger gulped and bit his lip. "I didn't apologize correctly.. Look, I do feel bad for my behavior and I am a dick, and even if at first part of me was doing it just to feel better about myself I know, now atleast, that what I did was terribly wrong" Minho exhaled "Why did you do it in the first place?" The older said as he averted his eyes from Jisung and shaked his head. "I don't know, I guess ever since I was a kid I would find him "weird" and that grew into something worse because I never corrected myself. And he got treated differently too so I guess that made me hate him too. but it just grew into nothing, It just became part of me to bother him I guess.."

Minho got up from his seat. "Jisung.. I really like you but this friendship cannot continue if you're this way.." Ouch. That made Jisungs heart ache, but who did he have to blame other than himself? This was it, a breach between him and Minho was made and it was his fault. "I believe that you can change, and you sort of proved it just know but If that change isn't made then I won't change my mind either" The brunette took out his car keys. "Enjoy your free drink" The older walked away leaving Jisung speechless and with tears that he had been holding back. God, who is he kidding, of course this would happen eventually who the hell was he to think he'd get a free pass. He wiped his tears with his shaky hands but more kept coming out, why the hell is he crying he isn't the victim here. He looked at the drink and took a sip from it but put it back down. Jisung noticed that his breath was starting to shorten, and that he was shaking badly. He started hyperventilating and letting out sobs also began to squeeze the chair. A panic attack was going to start and this time, it was also his fault.

Original Authors Note: This was also VERY short but I hope u guys liked it nonetheless TT btw before anyone has the AUDACITY to say I'm trying to victimize Jisung and to make people pity him I am NOT. Bad people also have their own issues, very real ones at that, so keep that in mind :p why is it that minho always leaves a crying Jisung behind in my fics. BYE BYE TAKE CAREE💛

Current Authors Note: Idk if y'all noticed that was intended as an indirect kiss from Minho. Giggles.
Also that last thing in the authors note has context, it's from my oneshot, that I haven't uploaded yet, and will probably be uploaded in spam.😭