Almost brothers

7. kittisawat brother

2 years later

I wrap my hand around Porsche's little waist, kissing him sloppily on his neck. We just had a little fight about him not letting me win in the new video game I brought last night.

I absolutely suck in video games.

But hey, I have got my Porsche who sucks me better.

I leave him in my room and go down to the meeting room. It's time for the seeking report and briefing and I wanted to get it done fast so that I could go back to my boyfriend.

Perhaps I should call Kim too.

The last 2 years have been blissful. That night changed it all. I barged into Khun Noo's room, ready to kill Kim when I saw him. Like I really saw him for the first time. He was sitting in the floor, between Khun Noo's legs, the latter busy braiding Kim's slightly longer hair from the couch. At that moment, Kim looked so much like Mae that my finger just lingered on the trigger.

I just realized something then-

Kim is my nong.

Nong.

Thankhun leapt into action, grabbing my gun and putting the safety back. I could hear Big and Pete whispering furiously at my back, probably relived to see Thankhun defuse the situation.

Kim just sat in the floor, looking ridiculous with his half done braids, staring at me with his deep black eyes. Mae's eyes, I remind myself.

As I said, Khun Noo had this uncanny ability to read people. He realized what was going through my head and did his best to bring me out of that black hole. He convinced me to get a therapist and made sure that I didn't feel left out.

Slowly, I started accepting the fact that this was for the best.

I had better relationship with both of my brothers and importantly with myself.

I realized that I didn't like doing the dirty part of  our family business and Kim was better suited for it. I contented myself with Paperwork and appearances while Kim became the enforcer and finisher of our family. I'm okay with that too.

I step out of the elevator at Kim's floor. Kim started visiting the main house often, because, surprise surprise, he was in love with Porchay, Porsche's cute nong.

Porsche absolutely refused to the idea of Kim as his baby brother's boyfriend and later on Kim and Chay living together, forcing Kim to visit the compound.

To be honest, it felt a little better to see Kim irritated but he kept his word.

I walk to Kim's suite when the hear kissy sounds. My ears turn red and-

"P'Kim. Eat this right now!"

"Only if you feed me, angel."

I gasp. I wasn't used to this version of Kim and suddenly the old flame of jealousy ignites.

Chay was a wonderful person. Not stubborn like his Hia who argues with me most of the time. How lucky is Kim, to have such a sweet, caring boyfriend without much of effort while Kinn moved heaven and earth to prove their relationship?

I suppress the bright flames of envy and remember my therapist words. It's okay, I'm a big boy and can deal with this.

It is what it is.

I knock on their door.