Say my name

Ive got you, kid

Y/N: "mmm no...."

Bucky touches your arm, "Baby"

Y/N: "no! Stop..."

Bucky shakes you

Y/N: "STOP!!"

Bucky grabs you into his arms, "baby wake up"

You shoot up, disoriented

Bucky: "y/n" he whispers

You jump and throw your hands up, breathing hard.

Y/N: "fuck...sorry"

Bucky gets up to grab you a glass of whiskey. He figures it might help, usually does for him. His face is hard. He hasn't told you what Loki showed him, what he put in his mind.

(You need to talk to him...) you think.

He comes back and sets the glass next to you, and walks to the bathroom. You hear him splashing water on his face. You stand up and stand at the edge of the bed.

Y/N: "Bucky...we need to talk about it..."

He's gripping the counter, "no"

Y/N: "Why not? Bucky I need to explain...and I need to know...."

Bucky: "Not right now"

Y/N: "Why can't we talk about it now?"

He starts saunter over to you

Y/N: "Bucky...."

Bucky reaches you, and puts his hand on the back of your neck, "Because right now...I just want to feel you", then kisses you hard...needy. "I need to know you're actually here...and that it's not just my mind"

You throw your arms around his neck. You feel pain in your side but refuse to focus on it. You needed him right now as much as he needed you.

You needed him on you to erase the memories. To replace Lokis lips with his, to replace his touch. And that's what he did. He spent the next few hours covering every inch of your body with his touch, his kiss. He's gentle with you this time...he knows you need it. Soft kisses, gentle touches. He kisses every cut, every bruise, every mark Loki left on you.

Afterwards, you are laying in his arms, listening to his heart beat. You feel the heat rise to your face again, oh no. You get up and run to the bathroom and close the door.

(You can't cry right now....breathe. You're safe)

There's a knock on the door.

Y/N: "I'll be out in a second"

Bucky: "Y/N, open the door"

Y/N: "Just a second"

Bucky: "Please...don't hide from me"

You open the door, he looks at you, tears streaming down your face.

Bucky: "baby...."

Y/N: "I'm not ok" you say, falling to the ground, sobbing.

Bucky sits down and puts you on his lap, holding you against him.

Bucky: "I know"

Y/N: "what did I think I was doing?" He is just petting your hair. "I thought I could do it"

Bucky: "you did do it..."

Y/N: "And now look at me? I'm a mess. A fucking shell of who I used to be! A sobbing mess on your bathroom floor"

Bucky: "Well..."

Y/N: "Bucky I know you're angry but..."

Bucky: "But nothing...that was incredibly stupid...and dangerous"