You are my reason [pewdiepie x reader]

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Felix's POV

I rolled over in my bed. I obviously wasn't able to fall asleep after the talk y/n and I had, confirming all my suspicions. I had to come up with a plan to get her out of here safely and make sure that piece of shit never hurts her again.

My phone buzzed on the bedside table and I picked it up to see y/n's name on the screen. I immediately pressed on the notification and my hands started shaking as I was reading the message.

From: Y/n

Y/n Felix, I can't stress it enough how sorry I really am. It killed me to hurt you, but I kept doing it to protect both of us. This will be the last time I cause you pain, I promise.

To start this off, you deserve to know that the woman who published those pictures was hired by Fredrick, it was his plan to tear us apart so I would feel lost and be easily accessible. He confessed to me about this recently, when I was already too deep into this mess to leave. But truthfully, I don't think I ever had that chance. You were right about all the things he did. I denied it all, but only because I was manipulated at first, and later on realised the severity of the situation. The truth is, he is a dangerous man, I don't even want to know how far he'd go to get what he wants. He told me how easy it would be for him to get rid of you if you kept suspecting things and if I ever let you near me again. It scared me so bad because I know how sick and twisted Fredrick's mind really is and so protecting you became my priority. Ever since we came to LA things have been going downhill, each day crushes me more than the day before and more than I thought was humanly possible, both mentally and physically. The things he did to me left a mark that cannot be erased. It truly doesn't feel like I am any longer living.

Please understand that you're not gonna be able to change my decision. By the time you're reading this, it'll already be too late either way. So take care of your and our friends' safety as soon as you can, call the police and show them this message.

Please do not blame yourself for anything that's happened because if anything, spending time with you was the only thing keeping me sane. I am so happy to finally be able to tell you this, I love you, Felix. Please live your life to the fullest and don't let the events of this trip haunt you.

Everything started to feel unreal like I was living in a horrifying nightmare, unable to wake up. Panic took over as the realisation set in that the text I was looking at was actually real. That feeling spread throughout my body in goosebumps, it was weighing me down and I realised that this whole time I've been covering my mouth with my hand, sobbing into it like it was a pillow. For the first time in my life I felt this hopeless. I didn't know what to do, I tried calling y/n a few times but, as expected, her phone was turned off. I jumped out of bed and ran to the drawer to throw on some clothes. I started lightly smacking the wall with my palm, searching for the light switch. After turning on the lights I quickly got dressed and my eyes fell on the bag, which was sitting on a drawer zipped open. It didn't take me long to realise that the key to our rented house was missing.

I rushed to the room where Evelien and Jack were sleeping. I couldn't be bothered to knock, I didn't make much noise coming in but my sudden barging in caused Evelien to gasp and sit up, smacking the switch of the lamp on the bedside table.

"Oh, it's you! You scared me, what's going on?" She whispered in effort to not wake up Jack who was sleeping soundly right next to her.

"There's no time to explain. I need your keys to the rented house." My voice was shaking and I was struggling to stay calm.

"Oh- okay!" She quickly made her way to the closet and started searching for a key in one of her bags after turning on the lights. I noticed Jack waking up and looking around all confused.