Dear Soulmate...

Chris

Dear Soulmate,

Dear Andrea,

   I guess I should start with a hello, it's been awhile. Things have changed lately and we need to catch up again, we haven't talked in forever. I still think about you all the time though, when I wake up you're the one I check my phone for, and when I go to bed, you're the one I'm worried about if you're ok or gonna make it home safe. God, I feel like a parent the way I worry and you'll probably make fun of me for it now that I admit it. I miss you though. Ever since you moved I've felt a piece of me sort of decompose over the months, I know we still text a lot, I wish we did more though I just don't wanna bug you. I really don't know what to say to let you know how much I truly care about you, we've had our ups and downs and our disputes, but I feel this pull towards you that I can't escape. You just captivate me with your mind, body and soul. I'm in love with you and everything you do seems to show me another beautiful side to who you are. I never told you this but when I was giving the speech in front of the school last year and I kept freezing up, I wasn't forgetting my speech, I was looking at you. We made eye contact the same way we did all those years ago when we first met, I still remember that moment like it was yesterday. but during my speech I was getting lost in your chocolate brown eyes thinking about how beautiful you were in all aspects. I know everyone laughed and I was the running joke for a month or so but I wouldn't trade it for anything, you were like an angel in that moment. You know, that wasn't even the most beautiful I've seen you look though. During pictures at freshman homecoming, remember how I stole my dads nice camera and pointed it at you? Looking through the lens at you blushing and trying to hide your face was the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen, I've seen the Grand Canyon, climbed mountains in Hawaii, and even seen Italy from the top of the leaning tower of Pisa, but none of those were even half as beautiful as I saw you in that instant. That moment, staring through the lens, I realized that you were the one, the one I wanted to care for and do anything to make happy. You still are today, even if you're not around for me to tell everyday you're still the one I think about all the time and would do anything for, there's so much more I wanna tell you and reminisce about, like our long nights staring at the stars in the park, but I'm worried this will be too long, so for now, as tough as it always is to say, goodbye, and I'll see you again

    Yours forever, 

     Chris