The Ink In Our Skin (Larry Mpreg)

Fist Dose

(Hello! I know it's been a while but high school is insane dude lol. I hope you enjoy this chapter! Thank you guys, Love you all! TPWK!!!)

~ Charlotte💙💚

Louis POV: 

It has been about a week since Harry and I decided to get together and I have never been happier. School is still really shit but I just reminded myself that Harry wants to see me everyday after school, I just look forward to that. I had honestly forgotten that Anne was my therapist until Mom reminded me that I had my second meeting today.

"Okay thanks Mum! I will walk over, I do it everyday to see Harry anyway." 

"I know you will Lou, have a good session." I waved goodbye to her on my way out the door. I was about to knock on Harry's door when he swung the door open and scooped me up in his arms. 

"What has you so excited Haz" I said giggling after he put me down. 

"I can graduate early Lou! I have more than enough credits!" Harry has been doing school virtually ever since he started high school. He is a year younger than me, being in year eleven. 

"Wow! That's great, I am so proud of you!" Harry kissed me, "Thank you babe". 

I smiled we have never called each other pet names before. 

"Babe, I love that, thanks... babe!" I grabbed his neck to pull him in for a kiss. I stopped when I heard someone clear their throat, that person was Anne standing behind Harry waiting to start our session. 

"Sorry Anne it's just, he is so perfect". I said caressing his cheek. 

Anne chuckled, "I know he is. Harry, get your ass upstairs so I can be with Lou. You can make out later!" 

"Alright Mum, sorry i'm sorry!" He said apologetically while giving me one last quick peck. 

"Alright Louis! I was thinking today we could go deeper into the self harm topic if you feel comfortable." 

She always had that warm motherly smile plastered on her face, I knew I could talk to her, so I did. I talked to her about where I would do it on my body and what triggers me. Anne helped me figure out that Niall and Liam are really my biggest trigger the other one being hatred, for myself. I felt so ashamed in that moment of realization so I just stared at my shoes again not wanting to make eye contact. It was quiet for a minute before I felt the couch sink next to me, a hand on my back and the smell of vanilla and coconut. Anne had plopped herself next to me realizing that physical touch calms me. 

"Louis, I need you to understand that I am so proud of you, Harry tells me everyday how much he cares for you and how proud he is of you. I have noticed a shift ever since you started dating him. You have this calm aspect to you that you never had before. I know we have not known each other for very long, but I love you very much. I have a special connection with you seeing how happy you make my boy. It has been so hard since Robin passed, he was really the best dad ever. (We are pretending he is his biological father y'all aight) Harry was really struggling with opening up to me about how he was feeling but lately, he has been doing that. He is starting to heal Louis and I owe a lot of that to you, so thank you so very much for making my boy the happiest he has been since his dad passed". 

I just stared at her in shock. "Actually?" 

"Yes!" Anne playfully slapped my arm. "I also think it would be a good idea to start you on some medication for depression and anxiety. Would you be up to that?" 

"Please" I said, I would do anything to make this numbness subside, no matter how broken taking meds would make me feel. I cannot let all my happiness be because of one person, that is not fair to Harry."

"Okay we can get you started on some medication I will talk to your doctor about what he thinks is right to start you on. It will be real easy I promise! Now go upstairs and have fun with Harry, he keeps texting me saying he misses you." 

I giggled at that, "Thanks Anne, I love you too." I ran up the stairs, needing to hug Harry. I swung open his door and jumped in his bed. "Harry!" He had a big smile on his face. 

"Boo bear! I missed you!" he said. "Ditto" I voiced beginning to make out with him. 

After a few minutes of kissing we ended up cuddled under Harry's blankets with me being the little spoon. 

"Haz, I am gonna start medication." I said worried for his reaction. 

"Okay, we can go get it together if you like!" I turned to face him. 

"Really?" I said, still shocked with how well he takes these sort of things. 

"Yes really, I can tell you are nervous Lou. Why are you nervous?" He questioned me. 

"I- I just feel- broken Hazza, I shouldn't need medication to be okay!" I could feel the tears forming in my eyes as I spoke. 

"Baby, take a deep breath I don't want you to work yourself up, just listen to my voice and focus on my breathing." I did as he told and listened to his deep rough but calming voice as he spoke happy thoughts to me. 

"You are doing so well, the tears are gone boo bear! Look at that, all better. I am gonna tell you something okay Louis?" I nodded feeling safe with Harry. 

"I have been on medication for years, I had really bad anxiety in year 7 and my Mum helped me find a way to control it but medication is still needed, to this day. Look at me, I am not broken! I have been very happy lately, thank you for that Lou. You are my extra little dose!" 

I chuckled, "No you are not broken, you are perfect!" I said with a grin knowing it was gonna be alright now that I knew Harry was going to be with me through the whole thing. 

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It's been about a week and Harry and I are driving to go get my medication. We pulled up to the chemist and went inside. It smelt like shampoo in there. I walked up to the woman at the back and stated my name. 

"My name is Louis Tomlinson mam, I am here to pick up my doses of fluoxetine please." I noticed I was being very quiet but she heard me and handed the package to me with a smile and told me it was thirty pounds which Harry insisted on paying for. 

"Thank you very much mam have a great night!" Harry said to the sweet woman who worked in the back of the chemist office. 

"You too darling!" She responded with a tone of kindness in her voice. We drove back to Harry's house. 

"Are you ready Lou? we can go to the bathroom to do it" Harry said with a warm smile. I nodded, Harry grabbed his medication and told me to go wait in the bathroom, which I did.

 "Hi baby" I said as he opened the bathroom door. "Here let me read the instructions for you" he said reaching for the bag that contained my new drug. "Okay, take one pill with food daily. Right then, it's a good thing we ate!" I laughed, he was so damn cute. I watched as Harry swallowed his with ease so I followed, just like an ibuprofen! I told myself which seemed to help because it was down in no time. 

"WOOOOOO you did it Lou! See you are stronger than before now! Look at my arms you don't think I woke up like this, no sir it was all the drugs! Soon you are gonna be ripped babe!" 

I was laughing hysterically. "Hazza I am going to pee myself!"

Harry was walking me back home and we were talking. "I am so proud of you Lou, you have no idea" 

"Thanks Harry, I have a secret" Harry looked at me nervously. 

"What is it?" I started to regret saying that I had a secret but it was too late to turn back now so I just spit it out. 

"I think, I- I love you Harry" I said it, I do love him. 

He just smiled at me, that smile full of teeth. "Well guess what Lou, I love you too very much, you are my world at the moment. How can I not love you boo?" 

I broke out into the biggest smile ever along with him. "I love you so much Haz you have no idea" 

Harry just chuckled reaching for my hand as we continued walking. Life was great.