Savior

Chapter 16: Love or Hate?

Chapter 16: Love or Hate?

I pushed Chandler away from me and wiped my lips. He just stole my outside-of-acting first kiss." What are you trying to do?" I ask." Huh? Were you trying to make me think that you like me, have me fall for you, and then have you break me even more by leaving me! Is that it?" I know something is up. He shakes his head," No..." he croaks. For the first time, I notice tears streaming down his face." I-I don't know why I kissed you, I just felt the need..." does the heartless jerk who's been causing me pain this entire time, actually have a heart?

It's been two weeks since Chandler kissed me, and I've been avoiding him since. I'm currently at Walker Stalker Con Tuscaloosa, Alabama. The next girl in line is a brunette with brown eyes and freckles." AJ!" I call out as I step out from behind my desk. I hug her tightly, and she hugs back." I missed you so much!" I whispered." Dash! I couldn't pass up this opportunity to see you." She replied. I stepped back behind my desk and sat back down." Before Robert gets mad." I giggled. I quickly sign her picture of us at the mall one day. I give her one last big hug before a boy walks over in a Spider-Man mask." Hi, what's your name?" I ask taking the picture he handed me." Chandler." He states. I quickly sign the picture and look back up at the boy, who now had his mask pulled up enough for me to see what his hair looked like. My god, he was attractive.... He had bright blue eyes, soft looking semi curly dirty blonde, pretty much brown, hair. He was gorgeous. Wait- this is the Chandler that kissed me! What is wrong with me?" Wait- Chandler, of all people, why do you want MY autograph?" I ask. He gives me this adorable lost puppy luck. Wait- adorable? WHAT. IS. WRONG. WITH. ME????????" Because... I've always had an internal battle with myself on wether I loved or hated you. I finally realized that I love you..." He whispered. I rolled my eyes, yeah right." We'll talk later, now get before people become suspicious." I growled. Chandler slipped his mask on and left, taking his auto graph with him.

I'm standing at my photo op, waiting for fans to show up. The same boy shows up in the same stupid mask-Chandler, just great. I sigh and give him a smile." Hello..." I say, greeting him. Chandler takes the mask off, only, it's not Chandler...It's somebody I thought I got away from a long time ago... Levi. My smile immediately drops." Oh, hey, Levi." I say, trying my best to be nice. What can I say? You act like my friend, break my heart, prank me, ruin a friendship of mine with somebody else, try to smash my skull in with a basket ball by throwing it at my head when it's leaned up against a brick wall, and then hit me in the hip-butt area with a tennis ball, I'm not going to be happy to see you." H-hi, Trista..." he stutters. Yes, he's nervous!" So, do you have any poses for the photo op in mind?" I ask, he nods his head." Yeah, um I was thinking that you could get on my back and kiss me will you had your arms around my neck?" He basically asks.-Insert internal sigh here- I give a fake smile," Sorry, Levi, that's against the rules. It's considered prostitution, and we don't exactly promote that kind of stuff." I lie through my teeth. He looks kind of sad, but thinks for a moment." Okay, um, can you get on my back though?" He asks, I shrug, can't lie my way out of this one." Yeah..." I say. He smiles and we get set up on the mark. Levi gets his picture, I autograph it because of the 'inconvenience' of the pose he wanted. He leaves happy as can be.

It's been three weeks sense the photo op incident and I still haven't lived that one down." And we're back live again in five, four, three, two..." and we're back live on Celeb Track (A/N: this is made up) " So, as we were saying, a fan boy came up to you and asked for a picture of you on his back and kissing you. Instead of saying yes an doing the picture, you lied and said that it was against the rules, why?" Arthur, the host, asks. I sigh and begin," The fan boy was a not so good guy from my middle school years. I couldn't kiss him, not after what he's done to me. For everyone to understand this, I have to explain my past with him. In the fifth grade I had a major crush on him and my only friend didn't like him to much. Every time we were on the playground at school and my friend wouldn't let him pass, I would. I remember one time my friend and I were obsessed with the Twilight movie series we were discussing what we would be. The fan boy, Levi, was wanting to go down the slide, but he couldn't because we were in the way. He kept asking nicely for my friend to move, but she wouldn't. I stood up and moved. Levi went down the slide, but his friends followed and knocked me down. To me, at the time it was worth it because he won what ever game they were playing. Then, in the sixth I was getting bullied, I had three friends in the entire grade, and zero familiar faces. Half way through the year I still missed Levi and still liked him. He was in one of my classes. I thought of him as one of my friends, so adds up to four at the moment, and I wanted to tell him a liked him because I don't like keeping secrets from my friends. So, I put a note in his locket because I was still a scaredy cat at the time. Needless to say, I lost him as a friend and he would ignore me when I was trying to help him. It hurt. Then, seventh grade came along and I had four friends when the year started. I asked one of my guy friends to hang out at the dance as friends, through a note. Levi somehow got ahold of the note and answered back as my friend. That day I lost a friend and got pranked because of him. Then, in the eighth grade, he was in my P.E. class. One day I was playing on my phone, with my head leaned up against the concrete block wall, I heard a deafening smack noise less than two inches away from my ear. Levi was playing wall ball with it, and was trying to hit my head. I know this because he was bent over laughing at the fact I was scared. He grabbed the ball and started playing again, so my friend and I moved. Later in the year I was walking around the gym with my friend and Levi and his friends were playing wall ball with a tennis ball. When Levi had ahold of the ball we decided to run by so we wouldn't get hit. Levi through the ball at me and hit me in the butt slash hip area. He was bent over laughing at me because I fell the the floor. All of his friends made sure I was okay, which I was once I got off the floor. I had to have my friend help me walk the rest of the class period. So, after that I couldn't bring myself to kiss somebody who was so mean to me." I finished. Arthur just shook his head." That all sounds to crazy to have actually happened." I roll my eyes and bring out the evidence." I went back and got the security tapes of it all. I knew it was to crazy in the first place." I played every single tape. By the end of it all, everybody believed me.

I lay in bed awake, yet again. I can't handle not knowing this. Do I love Chandler? Do I hate him? I can't get those lost puppy eyes, the gorgeousness of him at the con, but at the same time, I can't get the horrible things that he's done to me out of my head.