Rock Paper Scissors

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*unedited sorry*
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It's been eight months. Eight months since that stupid accident. It's been Eight months since I was my stubborn self.

I didn't know that Luke would crash. People still blamed me because I was in the car too but I survived. And the fact that Liz(Luke's mom) ignores me and just looks at me in disapproval, doesn't make it any easier.

I'm sat in an armchair at the Hospital in a waiting room.

For how long can a teen sleep?

it was time to get some coffee and clear my thoughts. I had spent one of many nights here on the uncomfortable couches.

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Once I ordered my coffee I sat down at the corner of the shop.

It's been eight months and honestly, I don't feel the same. I don't cry everyday anymore, I don't cry when someone mentions him and I don't cry myself to sleep. But I do cry at rare occasions when I overthink things and think about our memories.

I don't know if I still love him. It's been so long. I thought that the sadness would never end. I thought I was going to be miserable all my life.

What I've learnt from my years of living, is that you choose when to be happy and you choose when to be sad.

I wasted months on locking myself up in my room, doing nothing. I knew I would regret it and I did.

I needed to find small distractions. I came up with a routine since I don't have any friends or family.

Everybody blamed me. People gave me dirty looks everywhere I went.

I lived by myself. I was always by myself. I knew I didn't deserve it. I knew it was the other drivers fault.

I won't ever get how people can drink and drive. The drunken teenager should be in that hospital bed. Not Luke.

Someone bumped into me as I was on my way out of the shop.

"Fuck" escaped from my mouth as my bum landed on the hard floor, causing my cheeks to redden.

"Oh I'm so sor-", "save it." I said to the unfamiliar voice.

He took my hand and dragged me up.

He was actually quite good looking. Hazel eyes and brown hair. I haven't seen him around here and weirdly, he didn't judge me.

"I'm so sorry I snapped at you, I don't know what's wrong with me" I said.

"It's fine, want to sit down and talk about it?" He said.

"I just finished my coffee" I stated a bit guilty.

I walked out of the shop. I was stood outside, expecting him to come outside where I stood, which he did.

There were people trying to walk in and out and we were in the way.

"Do you want to go for a walk? I see that something is bothering you and I literally have all day"

"I'm not allowed to hang with strangers" I said playfully

He stuck out his hand for me to shake and told me that his name was Jaidon Brooks. I copied his act and told him that my name was Kara Rae Lennon.

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Yo yo what's crackin'

I have so many ideas and that's the only thing I'm good at lol. I'm sure I won't finish this anytime soon haha. I don't like it when fanfic are only about the girl being with ONE guy from 5sos. I'm going to make her a slut hehehe. Jk but I won't promise that she'll end up with Luke because I don't even know if she will do it myself :P

See ya later wouldn't wanna be ya ;-)