Blood Lust

Chapter 14

The more I try to find out more about this person, the deeper I go into the dark web. I can't risk people finding me out before I even get started.

I was still angry at Ace for what he did. Dragging me away from a life that I could've had.

But I loved him, that is true. But did he love me? I didn't know, I mean why would he force me to marry him if he didn't love me? He knew I was his soulmate so did that mean he automatically has to love me? I didn't want to be somebody's job, where somebody had to love me.

What do I do? I truly loved him, with every part of me. My soul, my heart, and my mind. Every part of me called to him. I didn't know what to do.

I worried for days, each night before I went to bed with him and the morning afterward while I just stared at his soft hair and his silky skin in the morning light.

His blonde hair was always a mess and when I woke up; his arms were always wrapped around me. When he would wake up, he would go down to play pool in the game room and then go to work.

It was different than when I loved Adam. Adam was more of a trauma bond. He was the one who broke me out of the place I was put in by the government all those years ago.

But this one morning, I remember specifically because it was one of the most important moments of my entire life. It was the moment when I realized I didn't just like Ace and find him attractive. I truly loved him and not because he was my soulmate.

Truly I resented him a little bit because he was my soulmate. I didn't know why at the time, but now I think it was because I wanted more control over my own life.

I woke up to the light bleeding through my eyelids and my husband's soft snores. I stared at him for a long while, taking in his sweaty state of sleep. He was even more attractive when he was asleep. It meant his face wasn't strained with stress.

His hair was damp with sweat and shower water from his shower the night before. He had no shirt on so I could see his toned chest and each muscle straining to keep me in his arms with each vein. His tanned skin was yellow and orange in the sunrise light. I could hear each breath he took in my ear.

He was absolutely the most gorgeous man I had ever seen. Better than Adam, better than Agni, better than anybody I had ever seen. I know that's not many but considering I had met his army a while ago, I was certain he was the most beautiful man alive.

His eyes started fluttering open by the time I took him in and I immediately shut my eyes. Trying to make sure he didn't catch me staring at him.

He groaned as the light hit his eyes when he opened his eyes all the way. He got up from the bed and left the room. I opened my eyes and I got up from the bed.

I decided I was going to take a shower and wash my hair cause I hadn't done that in a couple of days. So I got up from the bed and took off my clothes. Starting with my pants and working my way up.

I walked into the master bathroom and turned the shower on its hottest setting. It was my way of punishing myself for things I had done in the past. That was a day that I felt like crap and felt like I needed to be punished for what I was. A monster.

I walked into the shower. I hissed in pain and blocked out the pain for a little while, and then I let the hot water boil my skin. That's when I heard a banging sound on the door.

"Open the fucking door, Ayuna!" Ace screamed. I immediately walked out of the shower and covered myself with the towel. I walked over to the door but the door slammed open by the time I got there.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?! Hurting yourself?! Why would you do that to yourself?!" He shouted grabbing me and pulling me into his arms. Then and only then did I let everything go.

"Because I'm a monster!" I shouted back at him. I was still in Ace's arms when I screamed and he pulled back and looked at me in the eyes. Trying to detect if I was lying or if I actually thought that way.

I did...

"Darling, you are no monster. You are the most amazing woman I have ever met and I have met most women in this world." He said gently.

"I love you," I whispered into his chest.

"I love you more, Ayuna." He whispered back. I only realized that I said that when he said it back. I pulled back and stared in shock.

"You love me?" I asked in shock.

"If I didn't love you I wouldn't have married you." He smiled down at me. He was absolutely gorgeous when he smiled. I smiled back and took him into my arms and watched him carefully.

He loves me! I screamed that inside of my mind repeatedly. I was so happy I could've burst. The idea of him not loving me tore me apart. I didn't know when to say it, but I did it then and I was the happiest girl in the entire world.

"Now let's take a shower together so I know you won't burn yourself in the shower. But before let me take a look at your skin. I want to make sure it won't blister." He said softly. That's when I fell even harder.

When I thought I couldn't fall harder he made me fall even harder.