Blood Lust

Chapter 18

After killing every single person that came outside, I ran. I ran as fast as I possibly could have. I ran back to Agni and his hut to tell him what I had found out. But when I got there he wasn't home.

So I headed back to the castle to do some digging on Ace. Why would Adam want to kill him? It couldn't have been just because he was obsessed with me could it? Or was it because they had a secret past that I didn't know about.

So I ran, back to the castle through the gates but before I headed upstairs I went to go see the mausoleum for Ace. I looked out the backdoor and I saw it.

It was beautiful, it was black with black angel wings carved on the front of it. It was made for a king. The King of Death specifically. He didn't deserve to die. But now he doesn't have an heir to the throne. The entire world was going to collapse before everybody's eyes.

Because the king had died.

I walked outside for a little while staring at the mausoleum before me. I then darted towards the rose bushes and started picking them, not caring if I pricked myself on any thorns. The blood would spill out onto the petals but I would bear with the pain for the love of my life's flowers to put on his grave.

He deserved the world. He didn't deserve death. He wanted to live, with me. For all time. Death for him came too early.

I walked with a bouquet of roses with thorns pricking at the skin on my palms to the mausoleum that had my late-husbands dead body in it's hands.

When I walked in my husband's casket was open and I could see his body. His body was already starting to decay. His skin was so pale it was almost white. It was more of a deathly gray though. The sight of him like that made me want to throw up.

I walke dover to his body and placed the flowers that were covered in my blood onto his suit, the same one that he was wearing the night of the ball. It still was stained with blood from where he was shot.

I started crying. I hugged his body and I cried, deeply the first time I had cried since the night of the ball.

I was miserable without him, it felt like part of my soul was missing without him near me; to make stupid jokes, to keep me from hurting myself, to keep me from doing everything that I want to do to punish myself for letting him die.

But I didn't have him and I would punish myself and everybody near me, except children of course, for letting him die. But mostly me, I shouldn't have let him die.

Why couldn't I have done something to keep him alive? Otherwise he would have been there with me right then, telling every thing would be alright. So I continued to cry in his cold dead arms.

I lifted my head up from his body and closed his casket. I put my hand on the casket for a long while. While I continued to cry for him.

I continued to cry for him to be near, for him to tell me everything was going to be alright and that he loved me just one last time. Just so I could say goodbye. Just one last conversation. That's all I want.

But I can't have that. Because I'm being punished for being the way I am. A monster. A villain in their own story. I don't want to be a villain but I will be because he took the love of my life away. The one person who truly loved me for me. For who I am.

Not Adam, not my parents. Ace. And he's dead leaving me in this lonely universe praying that fate will be kind and take my soul away.

So I leave the mausoleum and ran. All over again. Hoping that I'll end up with him again. I ran all the way up the stairs to our room. The minute I opened the door I was overwhelmed by a scent. The room still smelled like him.

I shut the door and locked it and started sobbing. How could fate do this to me? Why would they finally give me something good in my life only to take it away? I asked myself these questions over and over.

That's when I plopped myself on the bed and started inhaling his scent that still lingered. I missed him deeply and I couldn't wait to see him again soon.

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All I saw was the dark black box that is my dream, I called out to Ace to see if he was still lingering somewhere in the dream realm.

"Ace, baby! Are you still here!?" I shouted so loud I was sure he could've heard me if he was there. That's when he showed up.

Ace, but he didn't look normal. He was bleeding still and his wound was opened, he looked up at me almost like he was begging. That's when I noticed the chains. I found the end of the chains in my hands when I noticed them and I shouted and ran to him to get him out of the chains.

"Darling, are you alright? Don't worry, I'll get you out of these chains." I smiled but he looked even more scared. I started pulling at the chains and trying to get them off. But they wouldn't budge. That's when he disappeared.

He showed up again farther away, outside of the chains.

"Let go of me, darling, please. I'll see you soon, I promise." He said to me. He opened his arms and I ran into his arms but he disappeared before I made contact with him. He left for the final time that night and I cried so hard. I sobbed in that dream.

He was the only person keeping me alive and then he was gone for good. I was dying inside. I knew I was going to be crying every night for a long time.