marring into holly wood

72 hours

(Norman)
(6 hours in)

I walked into the front entrance and I just wanna know Sarah's ok. It's my fault she did this and I'll spend the rest of my life making up for it if shell let me.

I'll have to figure out what to do if the kid is mine but my wife is my world right now.

"Excuse me can u update me on Sarah Reedus" I asked the receptionist and when she looked her up she called someone and next thing I know some doc showed up.

"Mr Reedus?" He asked and I nodded

"Sir ur wife been admitted on a 72 hour psych hold and she's asked du not be allowed up" he looked at me like I was a bastard and I. Chuckled

"I just wanna know she's ok" I said as my voice broke.

"She's ok she's depressed and I don't know what happened but I believe it's best u stayed away but she has asked that u check in on someone named Diane"

My heart broke that she's in here and she's worried about Diane."she also asked that u enjoy ur life"

My wife is depressed and refuses to see me.

I just nodded as he looked sad"Mr Reedus I don't know what happened but we'll take care of her"

I just nodded but when I walked out I couldn't leave

I looked up and as I saw the only window with an occupant I realized it was my love. I just looked at her and she looked so hurt.

She shut the window and walked away as I broke down. I just fucked up the only good thing I ever did. I looked at our wedding pic and I punched my back window shattering in

I started the jeep and did as Sarah asked and checked on Diane.
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(Sarah)

Norman just left as my doc found me at an open window. I just needed air.

"Ms Reedus ur not supposed to leave the floor"

"Needed air."

I got up and walked back upstairs as he followed and started "these questions are simple and required "

I just nodded as all I could think about was the sadness on Normans face. But how can I still care about that? He hurt me he lied to my face

"Ms Reedus" I heard and snapped out of my thoughts

"Sorry zoned out"

"It's ok"

"Question one :why?"

I was confused

"Why what"? I asked and he chuckled

"Why did u try to kill urself"

I thought and just bit the bullet."because everyone who should and has said I love u to me in my life has hurt me and finding out my husband may have knocked up the only friend iv ever had was the last straw. Im just feel like I'm always in the way so I figured I'd get out of the way and I wanted my heart to stop hurting"

I looked at him and he nodded as he asked"why won't u allow your husband here" ?

"Because I don't want to forgive him and I know if he comes here I'll cave" he grabbed my shoulder as he asked "ur husband mentioned u had nightmares can u explain them?"

"Don't usually remember um"
"Most of the time I wake up screaming but my mind is blank"

"Ur were abused as a child"? He asked and I just nodded as he said "we can try some meds  to help  but far as I can see u simply need the break"

I actually smiled and at the 72 hour mark It was noon and I approached the doc.

"I know discharge is 6 pm but is it possible for me to go? I don't think I can handle seeing Norman" I didn't cry or even flinch at Normans name and doc went to his desk

He came back with papers and a bottle"take one once a day it'll help" I looked to see it was the nightmareeds and I hugged him

"U want my unprofessional opinion?"

I nodded as he smiled"u love him . He's been here everyorning noon and night he loves u to but u need time apart"

"Thank u"

I grabbed my bag and after I got dressed I walked out of the hospital and just kept walking.

I'll stay away from Norman after what I did and couldn't do right

I wrote Norman a letter and asked the doctor to give it to him as I left
------------(Norman)

Sarah has been in the hospital for 3 days and today I'm going back to get her. I'll help her anyway I can . Iv called the hospital and apparently she requested I not know any details.

I'm confused as fuck but it's 6 pm and as I approached the hospital I went to reception and asked for her and the girl looked genuinely confused

"Sir ur wife checked out 6 hours ago" I saw her doctor come out and he must've seen the confused look on my face and walked over

"Mr Reedus how can we help u" he asked and I just looked at him"where's my wife"

"She checked out . She didn't know if she could handle seeing u" he handed me a letter and asked me to leave as I sat in the jeep and read it

Norman

I'll always love u and you were what I thought was the best thing to ever happen to me.

I was wrong

I thought I deserved u but it's been made clear I deserve to be alone so go have a good life. U told me after our baby died that u never wanted to marry so u won't have to deal with me.

Everyone who has ever said the words I love u has hurt me and I was just in the way of there happiness and I won't do that to u.

If Diane's baby is yours be a damn good dad. Our baby deserved to have u and all it got was a failure of a mother whos body couldn't protect him. Yes Norman it was a boy.

I didn't know until the miscarriage that I was even pregnant but apparently they can tell at 8 weeks with genetic testing.

Norman as I said I love u . I always will but I'm not good for u

My life before was so I could escape the hell I was raised in but all I did was bring it into your life. I took those pills because knowing u lied to my face made my heart feel like it wouldn't cave in on itself. Norman it hurt physically I felt like I was in a meat grinder and I just wanted it to stop.

I don't blame u I blame myself for thinking I deserved u. Ur a wonderful man that made a mistake and that mistake may have a beautiful baby so please be a good dad

Again I don't blame u and u better not blame urself.

I love u Norman mark Reedus and I always will

I'm sorry