Blood Sins

Intoxicated

Andy's POV:

As soon as I open my eyes I instantly feel the guilt of last night begin to wash over me. I look over and realize I'm still lying next to her, holding her. ~Fuck her scent is intoxicating. I can't believe what I did to her last night, I've got to get a hold of myself. How the fuck am I supposed to face her now.~ I sit up slowly and rub my eyes, trying to clear my mind. In doing so I wake her up as well. She looks up at me cautiously and asks if I'm okay. I nod my head slowly and look away. I just can't bring myself to look her in the eyes. "Is it cool if I take a quick shower?"

"Yeah that's fine." she says while still giving me a strange look.

I get up and make my way to the bathroom. I stare at myself in the mirror realizing that I failed to wash all of her blood off of me the night before. I sigh before stepping into the shower and turning the water on. I begin to rinse off any remainder of her blood that still stains my skin. I watch as the red tinted water runs down the drain, and I feel my guilt start to overwhelm me once more. Once I decide I'm clean enough I step out of the shower and dry off, I pick up my shirt only to realize that it too is stained with her blood. I hold shirt to my nose and inhale the scent of it before stopping myself. I finish getting dressed and I return back to her room. I decide to leave my shirt in the trash since it's ruined anyway. When I walk out I catch a glimpse of her staring at my shirtless body, she turns bright red and looks away instantly. As I approach her she instinctively scoots back a little. She was afraid of me, unsure of my presence, and honestly I don't blame her. Even I'm unsure of what I might do next. Even though she was keeping her distance she still attempted to break the awkward silence by talking about random things here and there, unfortunately I heard none of it because all I can focus on is the sound of her heart beat and the blood rushing through her veins. ~What the fuck have I become, I can't even look at my best friend as a person anymore, it's like she's just something for me to sink my fangs into now.~ I hated to admit it but a part of me loved the sounds of pain that came from her last night. The beast in me wanted to hurt her. As she stood up I caught a whiff of her scent, the smell of her blood made my fangs throb. "Hello?? Are you even listening to me??" she says, raising her voice. This momentarily snaps me out of my trance.

"What??" I say distantly. I'm given a disappointed look in return.

"I-I'm sorry Juno, but I think I need to leave." She stares at me in confusion. I didn't want to run away but I also didn't want a repeat of last night. I can't control myself around her. I needed to leave so that I wouldn't drive her away further or worse kill her. I stand up and I have to practically pry myself away from the smell of her blood. Once I open the window the sun hits my skin and burns me, I hiss in pain and pull away quickly. She rushes over with a concerned look.

"Are you okay??"

"Yeah I'm alright, I just forgot that I can't be in the sun."

"You can't go into the sun now? Why?"

"It burns my skin, I'm a vampire remember?" I say laughing awkwardly.

"That's so weird." she says slowly, she watches as the burn on my arm quickly heals itself. I walk over to the bed and grab my jacket. I zip it on and put my hood up. I return to the window and stand on the edge of the opening "I'll see you soon, okay?" she only nods in response. I give her a small smile before I run out onto the street with inhuman speed knowing that if I had stayed even a moment longer I would've lost control.

"I didn't know you could run that fast!!!" I hear her yell out behind me with a shaky voice. ~Neither did I.~ I respond back in my head. Once I arrive back home I go straight to my room, I shut all of my curtains and curl up on my bed. ~This hunger is never ending.~ I groan in frustration as I stand and walk to my bathroom. I watch as my face changes in the mirror, it is a face I do not recognize. Twisted and monstrous. The veins begin to creep down from under my eyes once more and I watch as my irises change color. Anger floods my body as I reach forward and punch my mirror, shattered glass falls all around me. I glance down at my torn and bleeding hand, I watch in horror as I witness my wounds close up and disappear without a trace right before my eyes. I reach down and pick up a shard of glass from the floor. I wince in pain as I dig it deeply into my wrist, I slit my skin deep enough that I should bleed out. My brow furrows as I witness the massive wound close up with ease. Not so much as a scar left behind. I run my fingers over it in confusion. ~How the hell am I supposed to hurt myself now!~ I run my finger over my previous scars that I had left over the years. I hear a knock on my bedroom door breaking me from my thoughts.

"Yeah??" The irritation in my tone is very evident.

"Hey I need you to run to the store and grab a few things for me." It's my mom.

"Now??" I can feel my frustration growing.

"It doesn't have to be right this second just make sure it's done before I get home for work so that I have what I need for dinner. I'll leave you a list on the kitchen counter." I want to scream in response but instead I just roll my eyes and throw myself onto my bed. ~How the fuck am I supposed to go out and be around all of those people, I can barely contain myself just sitting alone in my room!~ I groan in frustration and roll over onto my side. ~She doesn't get home from work until 9 so I have a few hours to figure something out, hopefully my hunger will calm down by then.~ A few hours pass by and eventually I have no choice but to go to the store. Unfortunately, my hunger has only gotten worse during this time. I check out my window to see that the sun has mostly set by now so I won't need my jacket. I throw on my shoes, grab the list before walking out the front door. As I make my way to the store I can hear the heartbeats of all the people who pass me, it's driving me mad. However, it's nothing compared to how I feel once I finally enter the store. I'm instantly overwhelmed by the scent of blood that is swarming the building. I stop in my tracks and hold my head attempting to regain control of my myself. I take a few steps in before some lady accidentally bumps into me. I stand there, frozen in place, just staring at her with wide and rabid eyes. She's speaking to me, probably telling me she's sorry or asking if I'm okay, but I'm unable to tell. My hunger is drowning out everything and I feel my fangs threatening to slip out. I instantly turn around and sprint out of the store, I'm breathing heavily and I can feel the vampire side of me trying to scratch its way out. I hold my stomach in agony feeling the ravenous hunger tear through me. I'm still running, although I have no idea where to. Eventually I stop outside of some random building and I lean up against it with my eyes closed hoping this feeling will subside.

"Are you okay??" An unfamiliar voice calls out to me, breaking me from my thoughts. I open my eyes to see a girl I've never seen before standing in front of me. She looks very concerned.

"What?" I ask, only half aware of my surroundings

"Are you okay? You look like you're in pain." she repeats

I stare at her for a moment, before taking a step towards her. She steps back, beginning to look uneasy. I try to stop myself but before I have the chance I grab her and pull her to the side of the building. I hold her wrists above her head in one hand pinning her to the wall and I use my free hand to expose her neck. I feel my fangs finally break free and I watch as the fear begins to grow on her face. She screams out in horror and says "What are you??!" I cover her mouth before I sink my fangs violently into her throat. I growl as I do so. This isn't like when I fed from Juno, this is much worse. I can feel myself tearing through the flesh of this girl's neck. Her body is becoming more limp under me as I consume her lifeforce. Suddenly her head tears off of her body making an awful thud as it hits the ground. The remainder of her blood sprays onto me from her now severed neck, covering me. I stand in shock and horror staring at the mess I've made. ~I did it again...I can't believe I let myself do this again.~ I am unable to move, unsure of what to do next. I can feel the blood dripping from my mouth and seeping down my chin. My clothes are stained, and no matter how hard I try I can't seem to get my fangs to retract. I back away slowly and instantly use my inhuman speed to get back home. I run past my mom as fast as I can and slam my door. I lock it instantly before sliding to the floor.

"Did you get the groceries??" my mom asks in confusion from outside of my room.

"They were closed." I lie in an exhausted tone

"Oh...damn. Okay then. By the way, you're gonna have to go back to school tomorrow. You've missed way too many days"

I can only sigh in response. I sit on my floor for what feels like forever. ~I'm a murderer. What the fuck...Thank God Juno wasn't there to see the damage I've caused this time....I hope she's doing okay.~ With that I slowly drag myself to the bathroom so that I can shower off all of the blood. I lean up against the shower wall and close my eyes. ~How the hell am I supposed to make it through school tomorrow?~