Eyes barely open, head low-key spinning from the hangover, Renjun sits down on the dinning table at his house only to find out that he's going to marry the son of his father's friend and even worse, the son is a person among his best friends and the...
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Renjun pushes the door to a hospital room after spending some good minutes standing outside in hesitation. Once he's in the room, he immediately locks eye contact with one of his best friends who is lying on the bed with pale face and dark circles around his eyes. This is a completely new sight for him.
"Jeno." He mumbles and the younger parts his lips, doesn't know how to response.
It somehow breaks Renjun's heart to see someone like Jeno being in this state. Jeno who always has a bright smile on his face, Jeno who never has a bad day, Jeno who is always in the best condition.
Renjun closes the door behind him slowly and walks towards the younger. He stands there with an awkward silence for a few second before taking a lunchbox out of his backpack and places it on the table.
"Renjun." Jeno calls out that startles the older a little. He turns to Jeno and smiles, waiting for Jeno to continue. "Did Jaemin tell you to come?"
The older shakes his head and answers. "No. I was the one who asked him if I could come." He turns to the lunchbox and points at it. "He cooked these by the way. He told me to force you to finish them too."
"Why are you coming alone?"
Renjun looks away and back at Jeno before taking a seat down next to the bed.
"I... I didn't let him come. I wanted to talk to you... alone."
Jeno makes a confused face. "But how did you find out about me? Jaem told me he didn't tell you because you didn't question him about it."
"I did question about it... but I didn't get to listen to him before assuming the worst in him. I feel terrible."
"Wait! So you guys fought? because of me?"
Renjun swallows his guilt down his throat. "No, Jen. Not because of you, it was because of me. I let my anger take over me... like usual."
"Are you guys okay now?" Jeno says with a worried face. Renjun looks at him and feels even more guilty.
"How are you always worried about others more than yourself?"
"Renjun."
"Jaemin and I are fine now. And I'm not here to only talk about this."
"Then what are you here for?"
The older lets out a deep breath before answering. "I want to do something good for my friends, for once. That's why I came to take care of you today." Renjun's eyes start to get watery as he speaks. "I've always been mean to you and the guys but you all always accept me and be here with me no matter what. It makes me feel so bad to know that I cannot be the person that you can trust with your problems back and I can't really blame anyone else more than myself for this. Compared to Jaemin, I'm way worse than him as a friend but just like you all, he accepted me and always opens his arms for me no matter how wrong I am, so I want to become better." At this point Renjun is sobbing. He tried but he cannot hold any of his emotions in anymore.
"I don't find a problem with you, Renjun. You're good." Jeno says in the most pleasing voice ever.
"That's because you're used to me being me and it's not acceptable. I wasn't a good friend, you're just used to me being that way."
"Renjun..."
"I'm sorry, Jen. I will try to be a better person and a better friend. I will always be there for you in your hard times, just like how a friend should be."
Jeno sniffs and raises his head back to stop the tears from dropping down from his eyes. "You're making me cry."
The older chuckles in between his sobs. "I'm also crying right now, who gives a fuck about you." He says with tears still rolling down his cheeks.
"I thought you wanted to be a better friend?"
"Who said I was gonna start from today?"
Jeno laughs as he shakes his head, feeling a lot better than he was ten minutes ago. "You're crazy."
