scarred omega

why? ...stay away

Kai prov.

It's been a couple day's they put something on my arm to stop me from taking out the wires from my arm and trust me I've tried to take it off It's hard to move my arm and plus it's my dominant arm to so yeah guess I'm stuck with it till I find a way to get it off.

The alpha has come around multiple times to make sure I'm still in the room. Even though he doesn't come in, he just stands there just enough to fighten me. I'm waiting for him to decide to hurt me, but he just keeps playing with my emotions, keeping me on edge. I'm afraid to sleep. I try to fight it, but the doctor? That did this to me has been injecting with stuff that making me sleep I'm not sure what he or they do during that time noting feels different when I wake but it scares me I don't know what to expect and I hate it why can't the leave me alone why are they trying to trick me I just don't understand .

I looked at the door, hearing footsteps coming closer. I sniffed the air, finding out it was the alpha and the doctor. I held my breath, waiting for the door to open. When it does only the doctor comes in as he says "hello luna I was hoping that you'll give the alpha a chance and talk to him he wants to see you it's been hard for him to stay away but he knows your afraid and trying to let you take your time but you need to start some where and here is a safe place to do so you won't get hurt" I moved back not wanting to lishen any more "its not my choice what he wants to do he's the alpha...and stop calling me that I'm just a useless unwanted mut!" I trying to hold back my tears, but it's hard. Why can't they just see that I want to be left alone that I'm not going to fall for their tricks.

Blake prov

I had kept my space with my little mate not wanting to scare him even though I do stop by to ask the pack doctor how he is and stand at his door but each time I came near the door the smell of fear and the whimpers worsen it hurts to know my mate fears me. I just want to hold him and tell him nothing will ever hurt him and that I love him but I can't or I could put him into a panic attack all because he fears me.

I've talked to felix hoping to get some of me emotions out to feel better and maybe find out what to do to get my mate to trust me but will he ever will how can I prove that I'm different if he can't have me in the same room with out a panic attack .

I have decided to go check on my mate again my 3rd time going today as I walk up to the pack doctor I said "hey has anything change have he tried to relax to eat?" The doctor signs "no we still got to give him sleep medicine if he doesn't do it on his own I wouldn't but inthis case his body needs the rest and he refuses to eat if some ones in he has nibbled on it a little we have been giving him fluids but we may got to force feed him " I shake my head "no that'll only traumatize him more ...I'll try getting him to eat" the doctor nods and we start walking he had went in first thinking it may be the better choice but as I lishen to what they say my blood starts to boil not because of my mate no at the people that hurt him that made him feel that way I pushed the door open walking in bit not going close not wanting to force it to much "no you are not useless or a mut and your certainly not unwanted you are wanted I've wanted for you all my life my pack been waiting to meet you for so long you are wanted by us please let me show you we are different please I won't push boundaries I'll take it slow I just want you to get better so you need to eat and sleep please if not for me fldo it for your self" I say beggly watching him hug his self best he can smelling salt knowing hes crying .

He slowly looks up at me but quickly looks down tears in his eyes "why ...why do they or you want me ...you...no you had the one hurt me you got the doctor? To do this to me making me feel weird things by having me connected by these wires " I lishen to him shaking my head trying to show I didn't "no I didn't know he was doing that and I was not here when he brought you Here and those wires just make sure your ok and give you fluids if you drink and eat we could remove them but for now they there to help and what your feeling is the mating bond telling you I'm your other half " I watched him nible at his lip thinking as he looks at the wires taking a deep breath he says "I'll eat and drink if it means these comes off ...and...." he pauses thing hard seeming to be confused as he looks at me saying "I don't know why you'll lie about me being your mate to get me to stay? Or hurt me more? All these thoughts of why you'll trick me and why only makes me think why would dome one lie about me being a mate it'll look bad on them why admit that I wouldn't want me as a mate even if your wanting to hurt me makes no silence to go that far I'm not mate martial so wouldn't you want to get rid of me or deny it so why why even say anything you make no sense...I don't like this not know always second guessing these thoughts of wanting to believe it to not it's driving me crazy....why can't you leave me alone" I honestly teared up lishening to him as to took a step closer going onto my knees saying " stop talking down about your self your so beautiful and I bet you got so many things that ill love about I want to see you smile your smell is amazing even though you get scared and your amazing voice to your eyes I wouldn't ask for any one else to be my mate I want only you... I can't leave you alone because it'll hurt me and you both even through you want me to now your wolf would go crazy I just want a chance to show you please " I look at him hoping he'll let me in a little