Thousands of Lives Can't Keep Me Sane

Chapter 1

It was a curse. To continue to live repeatedly.

In a different world, different dimension, different time, and different people. But with still the same name, face, physique, and especially the same color of my hair.

I think I already experience everything there is as a human. To be a prince, a demon, a witch, a knight, a slave, a chef, a farmer, a beast and even being a woman. But the same as always, I live my life alone from birth to death. No one had ever stayed. Its either they left and die, or I left and die.

Life had already lost its meaning the moment I wake up on one of my lives.

I just remembered dazedly looking in the ceiling of the new room I am in, in another new world.

I do not dare to move nor try to speak. I don't even want to know whether I am still alive or just breathing to keep on living.

The cruelty of this karma had reached the limit of my mind, and it made me restless, to the point that, that life ended on my own hands not even reaching a day for my 2,742nd life.

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2,937th. 3,015th. 3,289th. The number of lives he lives continue to increase that he started taking his own life in those hundreds of lives he counted.

It was his 4,999th life that everything changes.

He met him. The reason behind this never-ending curse. The person who passes this to him just because the soul of the original owner of the curse is bound to him. To not destroyed the balance, he makes him the scapegoat for all his sins. The God of Death.

He doesn't know how he knows. As if something on the back of his mind tells him that the time and place he was at, is the past of that god.

His hands move as if instinctual, the moment he caught glimpse of a kid with silver hair that he's too familiar with. He grabs him, not caring of the reaction of the people around him and strangle the boy with all the strength he has with his lanky arms as a child.

Its kind of satisfying. As if finally, the disgusting feeling of the brand of death that he has is fading. The moment he saw the lifeless body of the God of Death, he didn't hesitate and killed himself.