Smile Until Then
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We are in the pits of despair again as november is Already halfway done
I never knew I'd believe this was what I do for Fun
Lay around, drinking and smoking and praying To die
Sitting and aching and touching myself dry
Being alone and being lonely
Wishing for love and wishing hopefully
Until it's no longer hope it's back to despair
Back to depression back to my chair
I will sit here until my love comes back
So I can sit with him and not do jack
Once he leaves again I go from happy to sad
And all my thoughts go from cheerful to bad
I hate this cycle I've found myself in
I'm just glad I have a life I can be happy ish
I don't know what this next year will bring
But I hope for more rainbows and birds that sing
Though that means more rain on more days
And being awoken by roosters screeching my way
It'll be okay and I'll know I have something to Look forward to
Maybe the rain won't be so bad and I like waking Up at 5:32
I don't want to take this life for granted
But I will never know if I have planted
Enough seeds in the lives of everyone around me
Or brightened the days of strangers who Surround me
Even if I don't, I know I have before and someday I'll do it again
So I will keep my head up and smile until then
-SP
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Loss and Love and Longing - Poetry by Soph
PoetryMy poems from over the years that have stuck by me in my best of times and my worst of times.
