Older Brothers am i right?

Nightmare

I woke up on Friday.

My day at school today was boring as fuck as per usual . same old boring boring.
I came home from school . Indiana had started to pick us up since Hunter wasn't at home because he was at his new job and Cole and Tate were also not home and Max left and Shay was also at work so since she had her car she would come and pick us up.

"Heyyy!" Indiana said unlocking the doors. Brayden sat in the passenger seat. Me Tom and Ace in the back.

Me and Tom...... idk. We've known each other our entire lives, but somehow I kinda like him.. I can't like him I can't, but I do and Ryan, who I still am talking to no one has found out think the good Lords. I think.

After a 'what did u do' and 'how was school ' talk , we just jammed out to music.

We pulled up home .

"You good?" Brayden asked as Indiana coughed

She nodded and Tom picked Ace up.

We walked in and we all went back upstairs got changed, put her bags down and came back down to eat food

"You guys want........ Doritos? Cookie dough, ice cream?" She said

We all turned around at the second option, and she passed us spoons on the tub

I layed down and Indiana passed us bowls and she took Ace.

I was exhausted so I rested my head on tops lap. We sat there for 20 minutes watching whatever was on the tv.

"Indiana " I said and she looked up.

"Can I asked you something " I said and she said "ofc"

"Uh- wait " I said and signaled her to the back sofa

" How did you learn to cope with you know" I said

"With? " she said

"When u lost ur v. The first time." I said

"When- oh- oh sweetheart. I uh- I was drunk but I remember it." She said

" I cried about it- still do rarely but. It'll go . I promise" she said side hugging me.

"How come?" She continued

"Idk. I've been getting- like flashbacks." I said and she sat upright

"Did u tell Cole?" She said and I shook my head

" babes I think telling him is gonna help you because then he'll know about it just in case of anything and he's someone you can talk to besides me because I want you to talk to him about it because he would know how to deal with it. and I'm really sorry you're getting these flashbacks because I know when when it happened to me I was drunk but you were completely sober and I'm sorry." She said

"Hey. Sleep. You look exhausted. Your brothers are going to be home soon too." Indiana said

I nodded and gave Ace a kiss and hugged Indiana .

"Okay." I said and she continued to feed him

I went upstairs and took my pants off and just slept in my underwear and shirt

I slowly and slowly drifted back into my sleep.
In my dream both my parents were there my entire family, including Hunter, Tom, and Indiana .
-in dream-
I was in Cole's room. I got up , and sat straight. What was I doing?.

I walked out of his room.

"Cole ?" I said

"Hello? Anyone?" I shouted