Loving Him

Chapter 2

My hands are trembling as I lock the door and ran to the bed.

Kaagad akong humiga at nagtalukbong ng comforter. I admit, natatakot ako kay Nick. Natatakot ako sa sinabi niya. Natatakot ako sa pwede niyang gawin. I have noticed before how short temper he is and his actions are uncontrollable when he is angry. I can remember when I broke up with him, and he punched the nearest thing he could reach.

Just when I was comfortable enough and about to go to sleep, I sat up straight when the door was harshly opened. And I saw Nick with a glass of alcoholic drink on his hand.

I forgot, bahay niya 'to at malamang may duplicate siya.

"Hey hon, hindi mo manlang ako hinintay. First night natin 'to." He closed the door behind him and locked it. "So tell me, are we gonna be wild?" He said with a huge sarcastic smile on his face.

I gave him myself twice, yes. And I know how dominant he is in bed. And I cannot imagine how dominant he could be right now; with all the anger he is feeling towards me.

Napatayo ako sa kabilang gilid ng kama para sana kunin yung phone ko pero agad niya yung nahablot at ibinato sa dingding kasama yung baso niya.

Napaiyak ako at napasigaw sa takot. Fuck I am scared!

"What?! You're gonna ask for help?! Or say it to your parents?! Damn! You're here as a payment! You slut! Don't tell me you're not gonna like what we will do."

I cannot believe that word just came out of his lips.

Sinubukan kong tumakbo palayo sa kanya nang palapit na siya pero nahablot niya 'ko sa braso at hinila palapit sa kanya.

"Nick no! No please!" I screamed in fear and cried. "Nick let's talk this over please."

I don't know what to do anymore.

Pinunit niya yung blouse ko kaya naman mas napahagulgol ako. I screamed louder but his expressions say it all that he does not care even if I die in fear tonight.

I got more alarmed nang kinaladkad niya 'ko at pabagsak na hiniga sa kama.

"No! Nick itigil mo na 'to. Takot na takot na 'ko! NO!" I begged.

I cried even more when he harshly pulled my brassiere. Of course nasaktan and I cannot do anything about it. Parang hindi ako tao sa mga ginagawa niya.

Tinatakpan ko yung dibdib ko ng mga braso ko pero pilit niyang inalis at hinawakan ng mahigpit ang wrists ko. He is scanning my breasts with his eyes full of LUST!

Tuloy tuloy pa din ang pag-agos ng luha ko dahil sa sakit at takot sa kanya.

"Hell. These are all mine." He said with a smirk as he licks my earlobe. "I missed this body, you know?"

"Nick! Maawa ka naman please." Pagmamakaawa ko habang inaalis niya ang lock ng shorts ko. "Tama na! Tulo-"

I wasn't able to finish my words for what he did. He slapped me hard. And in my years of living no one ever slapped me... and Nick did it; the man whom I thought that would never hurt me.

Napatigil ako doon dahil sa takot at sakit kaya nagawa niya ang gusto niya. I am too overwhelmed of his actions! He is a freak!

Nang maalis na niya lahat ng damit ko, sinimulan na niya 'kong hawak hawakan at halik halikan. I feel disgusted. I never wanted to give myself again to him like this! Fuck him! I would never want him to touch me again after all that he is doing to my family!

I am trying my best to stop him I swear, but he is much way stronger.

God... I hope he'll stop. Please help me.

Naramdaman kong tumigil siya kaya dumilat ako. Pero mas kinabahan at natakot ako nang makita ko siyang walang suot. And I would not like it.

"Nick please." I begged while he spreads my legs apart. "Let's talk Nick!"

"Bullshit!"

And his words were followed by slamming my knuckles on the headboard. I cried in pain and brought my trembling and hurt hands on my chest. But I whimpered more when he held my hands away from my body like I was not hurt.

He is hungrily kissing me. It feels like all his anger and lust are on his kisses.

Just when I tried pulling my wrists, I cried louder because of pain when he harshly entered.

"Tama n-"

Ni hindi ko manlang natapos yung sasabihin ko nang sampalin niya na naman ako. And it makes me dizzy.

"I told you to shut the hell up." He angrily said to me while he's thrusting faster and slammed my poor hands on the headboard again.

Kinagat ko yung labi ko dahil sa sakit at para hindi ako sumigaw. I can taste blood from it but what else can I do? My hands cannot even do anything.

I can feel that a hot liquid is coming out from me. And I know it is blood.

"Fuck! You're so tight." He smirked. "I'm enjoying this even more."

He again entered and started kissing my breasts alternately.

"Tama na. Maawa ka naman Nick. Please. Itigil mo na, ang sakit sakit Nick." Pinilit kong magsalita kahit hirap ako.

His hands let go of mine but I just wished he did not.

I cried louder when his hands started gripping my breasts like it does not hurt. This is rape! Binababoy niya 'ko!

This is terrible. This is the worst night of my life.

I cannot do anything but cry and wait for him to finish. He even moaned so loud when he's done.

Binitiwan na niya ako at lumayo sa 'kin. Pero halos sumigaw ako dahil bigla nalang niya 'kong itinulak sa gilid na para bang laruan na napagsawaan na niya.

He went to the bathroom after staring me like he is saying that I deserve these!

I cannot even close my legs because of the stinging pain in my part and my tears fell more when I saw my bloody knuckles as I reach for the comforter.

My heart pounded fast when I saw his phone on the side table. I was reaching for it when I felt him grabbing a fist full of my hair.

"Nick masakit, please." Makaawa ko habang sinubukang alisin yung kamay niya Nabitawan ko na rin yung comforter kaya alam kong lantad sa kanya ang kalahati ng katawan ko.

"You're gonna ask for help?! Do not try destroying my name! Don't worry, I will let your parents see you, but not yet. Not until they will cry in damn pain when they see you all bruised and hurt."

I stared at him despite of my blurry sight. How could he be this monster? Wala ba siyang kahit konting awa?

"Did you get it?!" Bulyaw niya at mas hinila yung buhok ko kaya tumango ako ng sunod sunod.

"Nick please. Ang sakit. Tama na."

He smiled and held my jaw tightly. "Simula palang 'to. Wala pa 'to sa moderate na pwede kong gawin sa'yo! If I were you, do everything a wife should do. Pagsilbihan mo 'ko, ipagluto, alagaan, at painitin sa kama!" Pabagsak niyang binitawan ang buhok at panga ko bago tumayo.

"You're a monster! Sana hindi nalang kita minahal!" I bravely said while trembling.

I gasped in pain and fear when he rushed back on me and held my jaw tight.

"Anne 'wag kang tanga. You're parents killed my mom! You broke up with me for your other guy. You didn't know how devastated I was before. Kaya kulang pa 'to. I'll let you taste every single piece of my revenge."

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