My Girl; A dark romance

Twenty-Nine

*Lily's p.o.v*
There was something about the idea of death that always interested me. Where do you go when you die? Does everything just end?

When I was in the car with Travis, he was holding my body, I didn't feel pain. I just felt like something was very wrong and I couldn't breathe. I knew the second blood pooled into my mouth that it wasn't good and I didn't have a good chance of surviving this.

That's why I told him that I love him, it's true, I've felt like that for a little while now and I never had the guts to say it but I would never die without telling him how I felt.

But here's the thing, I haven't died, not yet. I was in a coma. I was aware of what was happening and I could hear Travis talking to me sometimes. For the first four days, he didn't really speak but I knew he was there because he was holding my hand the way I liked it.

I didn't think twice about taking those bullets for Travis. He saved me in my worse moments and I didn't care about death, I actually thought it would be quite relieving and I would be finally in peace in my mind. My mind that was so tainted from my rape that I would never get over. It would be so peaceful to never have a nightmare or bad thought again.

It was hard to explain but I was in this like in between place. A place between life and death and my body was confused on what to do, I was in a lot of pain so it wanted to go towards death but my heart was telling me to wake up for Travis and go home with him.

But I wouldn't wake up yet. I needed to my body to heal from the trauma it went through.

I was sitting on a patch of grass, under a tree. It had been my place when I wasn't wandering around aimlessly. It was also the place I went when Travis was talking to me because it was relaxing. I loved his voice.

But he didn't come to the hospital for long today and I didn't know what happened. He had a phone call and left and I knew he left because his hand was gone and I felt his lips on my forehead.

"Lily" I heard

I looked around and then Sarah walked towards me.

"Sarah?" I asked

She came over and sat beside me. I tried to touch her hand but it went straight through.

"Why can't I touch you?" I asked

"Well I'm dead babe. You're not"

"What is this place?"

"It's like an in between. You can fight to wake up or you can let yourself go"

"I want to fight but I'm so tired" I said

"Fighting is hard but you have a man waiting for you, someone who loves you so much"

"I miss you" I said

"I miss you too. You were always my best friend you know that. I hate that we haven't gotten a chance to grow up together but I've always looked out for you"

"You have?"

"Of course. I've loved seeing you grow up"

*Travis's p.o.v*
Lily's phone had been with me and it had rung for the first time since the shooting. It was a random number so I answered it on her behalf. Turns out that today was the day that she was suppose to move out of her dorm room. I had no idea. She never told me and I also didn't know that she had locked out until I got to the college to get Lily's stuff and the receptionist told me that there was outstanding rent of three months.

Lily was in almost $4,000 of debt.

I had the money so I didn't care and paid it but I hated that she didn't feel like she could tell me she was having financial problems.

Jackson came to the dorms with some boxes and I got access to her room. I started to pack her stuff. I didn't want anyone touching it.

I packed up all her clothes, books, bedding. She didn't have heaps so it didn't take that long to do but being in her space that smelt like her, it fucking hurt.

The whole place was emptied out. Jackson helped me more her boxes to the car and then I had to face the penthouse. I had been avoiding it to the best of my ability. Now I had to move my partially dead girlfriend's stuff into it.

I opened the spare bedroom and put all the boxes in there. When she got home, she could unpack when she was ready.

Then I went back to the hospital and up to her room.

There was a nurse in there changing her IV bag over.

"Anything new?" I asked standing at the end of the bed and I gently touched her ankles

"Not today. She had a sponge bath this morning but her numbers haven't changed"

I nodded and sat beside her bed and held her hand.
Like I always did.

The nurse left and I looked at my girl.

"I packed up your dorm room today, of course you were too stubborn to tell me you needed help" I said

I fixed her blankets on the bed. I made them give her more because I knew she got really cold at night. I never wanted her to be cold.

"Hey" I heard

I looked up and saw Jess.

I knew her and Lily had some issues and their relationship drifted.

"Hey" I replied

"How is she going?" Jess asked

"Still the same, no changes"

"I brought Lily's favourite nail polish, do you mind if i paint her nails?"

"I think she would really like that. I'll leave you to have some time"

I stood up and kissed Lily's forehead.

"I'll be back soon baby" I whispered in her ear.

And I left Jess to have time with Lily.

I went and got a coffee and made a phone call to Marcus for an update on who shot my girlfriend, he was currently looking through security footage of the bar and trying to chase up on the license plate of the drive away car.

Every part of this told me it was Chase and his bullshit again, he had been quiet for a long time.

I went back to Lily's room and Jess had left. Lily's nails were bright pink like she always had.

It was 10pm at this stage. I had been given a better chair since the first day. It folded out to a bed so I could sleep a bit better. You actually weren't allowed to sleep in here. Visiting hours finished at 11 but they made the exception for me because they knew that I would wreck havoc on anyone who tried to keep me away from my girlfriend.

I didn't want to miss the moment she woke up. I wanted to be here.