Phoenix

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a/n this chapter contains the mention of drugs.I do not condone any of this behavior it is simply for plot purposes. shït is getting real soon guys. enjoy xoxo -

Phoenix
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"take this and you'll forget."

"will I forget him?" I question staring down at the white powder in the small baggie.

"yes." and I did.I forgot about Noah Denvers,I forgot for a little bit and then it began to hurt again.

The feeling,oh the feeling.Everything moved so slowly yet I moved quicker than a hunter running for it's prey.My senses were wide awake,yet a certain type of numbness washed over me as my body moved.I felt on top.On top of the world and beyond,god I could almost feel god by simply raising my hands above my head as my body swayed.Yet there was still a stinging pain somewhere lost within my body shouting at me to mask it,to drain it away before it overcomes me,I needed more to stop the pain.Pain that came from my heart.

"More." I whispered as my body swayed,as they called for me to take off the remainder of my clothes which was a white bikini top with pale blue shorts.I'm not sure how I managed to get dressed this past week when I've been drunk for the past seven days now.But,considering the lack of clothing I must of been fücked when I dressed myself.

My eyes gleamed down at the crowd of my friends shouting at me to remove my clothes,to fück them,or to put a show on for them.I felt powerful with the stares on me.Their hooded lustful orbs stuck to me like leeches.I felt my best friends from school coming behind me,feeling me,their lips instantly attacking either side of my neck and I knew what they were doing...they were putting on a show.I was far past the point of caring as my best friend Jessica began kissing over the hickey he left upon me a few weeks ago while Louis' greedy hands wandered down my body while his head hid itself in my neck.Forget him.And that's when I began swaying again.Forget him.Have fun.Forget.Remember to forget.

Forget the way you love him.But man I sure do love him.I adore Noah Denvers with all my might.He's my guardian angel with two horns on his head and a red tail behind him,but I still love him today just as much as I did last week.I hate him too.Hate him for being what he is.Hate him for being so cruel and heartless yet with me he's completely different.He makes me so confused.I love him I hate him I love him I hate him I love him . I love him. Oh how I love him.Fück you Noah Denvers for making me feel this way,for making me bound to you,for making me feel like a fool for loving you.And a fool I am,foolish for wanting to run back into the arms of the only man that's ever caught my attention.Out of all of them he is the one I want.The one I need.

"Drink up baby." I heard Jessica's seductive whisper in my ear as she tipped the red cup up to my lips.Louis' wrist wrapped around my hair pulling me back making the burning liquid fall carelessly down my throat.I was no longer in control after that one drink.My body moved with the help of the pumping adrenaline and the hands of the lustful people around me.I think it was finally in this moment I realized why my brothers always chose me to lure their customers in.Show them your legs,move your hips,lick your lips and boom you had them in your hands.Even at the simple age of thirteen I managed to do this.Lure them in.Make them stare until they begged me for more.I never wanted to be this way though.I didn't want the attention of men,I just wanted the love from my brothers.They were my role models,my life,the only thing I had besides my grandparents, yet they didn't see me as their sister.I was their little killing machine.

"If you love me you'll do this Nix." Alessandro said to me with a stern look making up his face,"I was seven,fücking seven years old when I was raising not only Adriano but you as well.You love me don't you princesa?" He spoke with so much strength in his voice that the vein in his forehead popped out.