annoucments

twelve

I stood there frozen in shock.

  And then thinking about what could the possibility of this test being right.

So I just shrugged it off. "It's probably not even right." Kayla turned to me. "We need to get you to a clinic." I sighed knowing that she was right. But not wanting her to be right.

"Well we can't do it today it's getting late I should head home. "Okay."

I wanted to walk home becuase I just didn't want to talk to Kayla anymore. Not that I don't love her , I do but It seemed like the only person who knew should stay the only person who knew. But I wanted to tell calum.

I wanted to tell him becuase he might get jealous . And people who get jealous are people who still care. But I wasn't sure if calum even did want to care.

  Once I got to my porch it was dark out and instead of walking in my home I decided to sit on the steps. I looked out at the moon. Tonight was a full moon. It was beautiful and I began to wonder. Why does something so beautiful have to be hung with darkness and only swimmers of light. And then I realized that I was trying to feel for a moon and I headed inside becuase the next thing I know I'd be jelly of the sun.

  My mom yelled at me for being gone past curfew (usual) and my dad told me to take a shower (also usual) and the fact that I listened to the both of them was , unusual.

But I was feeling all sorts of feelings lately so why not?

  I hopped in the shower and automatically felt warm and safe. Like all my problems or worries could be forgotten right now and for the next thirty minutes. Alas. i felt the hot water trickle over my body deepening into my hair and steam up my bathroom. i sat on the floor of my shower.  hugged my knees close to me and started to sob.  everything seemed to be falling apart. like my life had taken a sudden turn for the worst and i couldnt reverse. And I couldn't give anyone any explainations, and no one could give me explanations. I was being torn apart piece by piece.

I got out and realized that life was a real thing. Then i heard my phone dinged. I walked over to my drawer and put my hair up in a towel while i put my robe on. Then I picked my phone up.

Cal: if you tell anyone i will kill you.

Me: ... what?

Muderer: you know exactly what I'm talking about.

Me: no actually im really confused...

Idiot: the baby.

Okay this was short asf but i love the end so much omg and a big thanks to my friend liz for all the commentary , luv y'all lots <3

Xx emmy xX