Love & Scars

The Ex Talk

Sirius had woken up early, not wanting to miss Izzie before she headed for breakfast. He glanced to Moony's bed first but only Remus was lying there on his stomach, limbs spread out. It was funny really, seeing him sleeping like that because once Izzie was with him, he barely moved, and his arm was always protectively over her. He hoped one day, he would be the one holding on to her, holding her in his arms as she slept. His was pulled from his thoughts when he heard footsteps come down the girls' staircase. He pushed himself up the wall and smiled when he saw her appear.

"Good morning, miss Miller. Can I escort you to breakfast?" He asked, holding out his arm with a small bow. His smile disappeared when her face paled. "Izzie?"

"Don't call me Miller." She shivered. "I don't want... it reminds me too much of him."

"I'm sorry, I didn't think." Sirius started to splutter.

"It's okay." She placed her hand on his arm and he shut his mouth. "Izzie, just Izzie." Then she smiled a little. "And since you woke up early for me, then yes you can escort me."

He looped her arm through his with a beaming smile. "Who says I woke up early?" He asked as they stepped out the common room.

"Because I know you, Black." His heart skipped a beat because of that. "I'm guessing you had to set three alarms on your wand just to get you to stir." She smirked.

"It was four actually." He chuckled. "And still wasn't the alarm that woke me." They walked down the steps, the castle was waking up slowly.

"Ah, James threw something at you."

"So, it's not only me you know so well." He scowled.

"Are you seriously jealous about James, your best friend and the boyfriend of my best friend?" She snickered.

"I'm even jealous of Moony and Reggie." He muttered. "I'm jealous because they all got to spend so much time with you. Remus, Reg, Barty..." He said through gritted teeth. "They've known you for years, they had all this time to get to know you, to do things with you."

"Do things with me?" She frowned. They reached the great hall. It was empty for the most part, only a few Ravenclaws sat at the end of the table, near the few professors that were talking to each other. "What do you think they did with me and who?"

"Well." He furrowed his brows as they sat down next to each other. Without thinking about his actions, he started loading her plate with all of her favourites, much to the amusement of Izzie. "I know about Crouch. About you and Moony, which I still can't figure it out -" He frowned as he shook his head. He poured her some pumpkin juice before sprinkling some spices over it. "Then there is my brother."

"Sirius." She gasped, grasping his sleeve. He looked at her with the same frown. "Your brother is gay." She whispered. "I thought you knew that." She smirked.

"Well, yeah but you and Moony had-" He waved his hand. "You know."

"Sex, Black. Sex. You can say it, no need to be coy about it. You never were." She pointed out. But she wasn't angry, she was pursing her lips, hiding a smirk.

"W-what?" He stuttered, looking at her lips.

"You always flaunted your conquests in front of everyone. Showing of your hickey's or telling everyone which cupboard was the best."

"I - I wasn't that bad, was I?"

"Do you want the truth?" He nodded. "I'm putting it mildly."

"I'm sorry." He said looking down. She chuckled and tilted his head back up with her finger.