Inside My Head

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OMG GUYS SORRY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN LITERALLY 16 DAYS I'VE BEEN SO CAUGHT UP IN SCHOOL BUT SOON IT'S THE HOLIDAYS YAS SO HERE WE GO THIS PROBABLY WON'T BE TOO LONG K -amelia

It took 13 hours for the storm to end and for the staff to find us. Turns out Leo got locked out of the asylum in which he stayed by some of the other annoying boys. Then the storm started, and he took shelter in the shed. As for me, well, you already know. Caine talked to me after the 'tradgic incident' in which h told everyone i fell out the window, Leo found me and then proceeded to drag me to the shed for shelter from the storm. Smart man. He wouldn't want the other patients knowing that someone escaped from the building; it could potentially start an uprising and things could get out of hand. After all there was about three times as many patients as there were staff. Anyway, back to what he talked to me about. He said there would be 'consequences' and 'reprecussions' for what i had done. I don't know exactly what will happen though, when i asked Caine what he was going to do he simply just didn't answer. While smart, not very attentive man. I kept on thinking back to the letters Leo and i read back in the cellar during the storm; it had said that Caine had a daughter, but no wife. Where was this daughter now anyway? The whole thing was probably a prank or something, set up to spook people who found it later on. I should stop thinking about this. It's giving me a headache.

"Why do you always sit like that?"                                                                                                                                 

"Like what?"

"Like... you always stare into space, it's kinda freaky," Madeline said.

"Sorry," I replied. It was finally the anniversary for my 2nd month surviving here. Lucky me. Only, how long? Around 5 years to go. Lucky me. It was overall a normal day, with the exception of visiting day. On visiting days is the only time i get to see Leo now. Bars have been put on the windows to prevent any more people 'falling' out the window (more like any more patients using the window to escape from the complex). I was counting down the minutes until lunch was over. 15 minutes... plus another 2 hours of chores before seeing visitors. It seemed like this day would never end.
Plus, the weight of what reprecussions were going to happen was really bringing me down. My anxiety doesn't help in any way either. It's been three weeks since my escape to the outside world, and Caine obviously still hasn't made my punishment take place yet. It confuses me, why would it take 3 weeks just to think up a punishment? Can't he just make me wash the floors on every level on the building? I'd much rather do that than have to wait a moment more. The anticipation is killing me. Literally. I think i'm losing my mind. Okay, maybe it's not that dramatic but it sure feels like it.

The shrill sound of a whistle sounded through the speakers. Finally. Visiting time. It fells like forever since i last saw Leo, even though it was only a two weeks ago. I never really understood why the asylum needs another building; can't they just have one half of the building for girls and the other boys? Caine may be smart, but his logic isn't that superior. Moving along with the crowd, i feel like i've forgotten something. I felt vulnerable, like something was missing. I didn't partcuarly like it either. But, i brushed it off and decided to make my time here worth it. As soon as i got into the room, i went straight to the table where Leo and i usually sit. And, as usual, he was already sitting down. When everyone settled down and took a seat at a table, he looked around nervously and began to talk.

"Hey Tess, what do you say we get out of this place?" He fiddled with his thumbs - probably an old habit - and continued. "I know how to get out of here. We can escape this hell hole."

Not really believing what he was saying i wuestioned myself. If there was a way to escape, would i really go through with it? Leave Madeline, all my friends here? Even if i've only known them for a short amount of time, they're still my friends. The only friends i have ever had. This place, i fit in here; i'm not an outcast, not different. I'm like all the other people here. I belong. I've even been told by some people that i belong in a mental asylum, maybe they were right. Am i really having this conversation with myself right now? Do i really want to be cooped up in this dump for another 5 years and maybe not even be done here by them? We barely ever even go outside now. I looked around, lowered my voice to a whisper and leaned in a tiny bit. "I'm in. How do we do it?" Glancing over to the counter where Madeline was on kitchen duty, i continued, "I can't just leave Madeline here. She'd be alone. Not completely, but you get what i mean. No one to protect her."

He ran his fingers through his light hazelnut hair and replied, "I don't know. There's a small boat that got washed ashore on the end of the island, maybe big enough to fit three people at the maximum. I don't even know if it will float with that many people."

I nodded my head and smoothed out my jeans. "Then we'll keep it as a backup plan. If anything bad happens, and we need to get out of here fast. That's when we meet, at the shed. From there we'll have to improvise and sprint to the boat and get the hell out of here." The whistle started again, blaring through the speakers, signifying the end of visitor day. This moment couldn't get here quick enough, and it went too fast? I need to get more sleep.

"Until next time," he said.

"Until next time."

HAHAHAHAH OKAY COOL GUYS I FINALLY DID A THING I'M GONNA TRY AND UPDATE MORE REGULARYLY OK COOL I HOPE YOU LIKED IT!!! EVEN THOUGH IT'S HORRIBLE!!! TYSM AND REMEMBER THAT PLEASE VOTE FOR THIS IF YOU LIKED IT AND COMMENT ANYTHING THAT YOU WANT TO SAY!!! bYE GUYS AND HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY, I HOPE YOUR DAY IS AS BEAUTIFUL AS YOU -amelia